Archive for May, 2010

shinaniganz

Monday, May 24th, 2010

This was a long day. I did not let things get to me the way they could of, but I was still left thinking about a lot of things. Basically, I stayed in most of the day taking care of household shit while doing some reflection and shifts of household energy. The previously written entries [...]

not a good time

Thursday, May 20th, 2010

There are times when the weight of the world is stting on one’s chest and laughing while spitting in your face. Although it feels like that, it’s good to remeber that you know so many people who would be happy to have my problems. Fuckin drama shit.

screwed up f/u

Thursday, May 20th, 2010

Well, it’s been a couple days since I admitted to something stupid here in the journal. We talked yesterday and my infraction is being treated like I bombed the WTC on my own. It’s way over the top. Considering our past history – one might not think it was such a big deal. Unless you [...]

from facebook

Thursday, May 20th, 2010

Someone had this posted “Give yourself the compassion you deserve for any and all past actions. Stop judging yourself harshly. All those errors and wrong actions were necessary for you to get beyond that placein your life. Be kind to yourself and eliminate any ill feelings you harbor toward yourself.” – Dr. Wayne W. Dyer

screwed up (nfm)

Monday, May 17th, 2010

It’s been a challenge, but since my previous entry every day has ended differently than before. I am making some new efforts to further bend me. To bend myself into something more evolved. Today – while taking a step forward – I took a step backward. I woke up next to a friend of mine [...]

changes

Sunday, May 16th, 2010

It may go without saying, or it might be the oldest saying there is, but it must be said. Now, I am going to hack this bitch up, but this is the general gist of what I am thinking: “How can you expect to change your life unless you change what you’re doing for your [...]

thoughts

Tuesday, May 11th, 2010

I am waking up on Tuesday feeling more like the blob than an action hero. I remember when – not so long ago – nothing could get in my way. I remember when my self confidence was like steel and other people’s negativity was like rubber bullets. Somewhere I turned into this paper man carved [...]

words can heal

Monday, May 10th, 2010

So, tonight I had a nice conversation with buddy David who is staying with me temporarily. I asked a stupid question that started the dialog, but he gave me some insight and time to meditate on a challenge he presented me with. See, I have been out of work (without a JOB) for quite a [...]

updated me

Sunday, May 9th, 2010

So, I have been toying about another major renovation on my personal site, and here it is. Symbolism has always been something that appealed to me. Note the Tree of Life in the corner and the angel logo on the Burning Man section. Now, maybe I can start contributing more and communicating better. Within the [...]