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    June 27, 2014, 16:21

    This is my life... in this rag tag blog. My name is not really Scott Kay; that is my Facebook name. I do not use my family name because I hate it. I hate it…

    • My Wish List 

      November 6, 2014, 09:16

      So I have the Amazon.Com Wishlist and I am thinking about that. Why, because there are some things I want to do and they are on Amazon of all things! So…

  • About 

    May 9, 2010, 10:15

    I was born a middle class white boy in the San Fernando Valley, in sunny Southern California. It was there where life took the first 90 degree turn. We moved…

    • Tom the Dawg 

      September 24, 2010, 22:28

      Tom was born February 18th, 1999 and has been with me since he was only 2 years old. I found him at the Burbank, California - German Sheppard Rescue. In…

    • Entertainment 

      October 8, 2010, 09:27

      I love going to the movies, but in the last couple of years there has not been a lot I wanted to go see. I am picky and frankly, the movie industry has not…

  • Creativity 

    June 25, 2010, 13:27

    I have had a strong creative streak running through me all my life. I was really one of the queerest kids on the planet which seems to have led to being an…

    • Sewing Projects 

      February 11, 2011, 12:49

      I have working on a lot of sewing projects. Kilts are what I started with, but I am trying to do a lot of things.

    • Writing 

      September 18, 2014, 17:41

      My writing has danced on the spiritual / metaphysical / sciFi side for all my life but I keep letting time slip by without attempting to publish anything.…

  • Burning Man & Me 

    June 25, 2010, 11:47

    It all began for me in September 2008 when my gal pal Michelle Curiel (aka www.latinabarbie.com) posted her pictures from Burning Man on Facebook. I was…

    • 2009 

      June 25, 2010, 11:50

      Burning Man: Evolution - 2009: Aug 31st to Sep 7th, 2009 Anyone going to one of these events for the first time is called a Virgin. Though it is flattering…

    • 2010 

      June 25, 2010, 11:51

      Burning Man: Metropolis: The Life of Cities 8/30 - 9/6 Having just returned from Burning Man, I am inspired to continue making art and hopefully show in…

    • 2011 

      January 24, 2011, 13:39

      Burning Man: Rites of Passage 8/29 - 9/7 When I sit here looking at the screen determined to write something there are too many things trying to get out at…

    • 2012 

      November 3, 2011, 17:56

      Fertility 2.0: Dumbest theme ever I wrote about my year in the form of a trip report on my personal burn blog from the re-posting on queer burners. It was…

    • 2013 

      September 11, 2013, 11:34

      Cargo Cult: Aug 25 to Sep 2 This was my best year since my first year at Burning Man. This is also the end of a year where I feel I had to justify my…

    • 2014 

      September 16, 2014, 11:37

      A big winner! Honestly when I heard about the theme and what was being set up for it I was summarily unimpressed. Howver, the Man and the Souk that was set up…

    • 2015 

      October 13, 2015, 22:27

      I was ready to give up on Burning Man after this year and after this decided to do it one more time. I decided to do it bigger and better and somehow make it…

  • Contact 

    May 9, 2010, 11:54

    Please feel free to reach out to me anyway you would like. I am on several social networking sites. Even on Twitter you can see linked in the side panel.…

  • Pictures  

    June 25, 2010, 19:29

    This is my life. This is a series of photographs in sections. EACH INDIVIDUAL GALLERY works separately. There is not a lot of commentary on them but enjoy this…

    • More Pictures 

      September 16, 2014, 11:22

      Pics of my beloved Tom the Dawg Tom was an amazing chapter of my life and finished with my mom. He was a great dog but passed in 2013. Half Moon…

  • Site Map 

    April 7, 2012, 09:11

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    • Burning Man - 08/26/11 by: ScottK

      August 26, 2011, 20:00

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      August 5, 2011, 20:00

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    • Element-11 - 07/21/11 by: ScottK

      July 21, 2011, 20:00

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    • First Friday with Engine 1 Pizza - 04/01/11 by: ScottK

      April 1, 2011, 20:00

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    • Good Morning Las Vegas by: ScottK

      July 19, 2010, 21:25

      Fuck you. Fuck you and the donkey you rode in on. Nevermind... so  woke up this morning  with this as my facebook thing: "...is feeling renewed and…

    • Planning again? by: ScottK

      July 12, 2010, 23:39

      It seems that September is a time of the year where I experience a lot of changes in the bad habit that is my life. Right now I am looking ahead, able to…

    • Radical Faeries? by: ScottK

      July 8, 2010, 07:33

      Well, I have discovered another sub-culture here that has gained my attention and it might be an answer for some part of exploration. The Wolf Creek…

    • I'm pooped by: ScottK

      June 26, 2010, 19:26

      It was a good day with some of my Burners at Captain Bill's house. It's always like a family gathering.

    • one is never satisfied by: ScottK

      June 25, 2010, 12:36

      So, the pepto version of the site is gone and back to my favorite tones of green... it was a quick change I put in today while I really should have been doing…

    • shinaniganz by: ScottK

      May 24, 2010, 20:39

      This was a long day. I did not let things get to me the way they could of, but I was still left thinking about a lot of things. Basically, I stayed in most of…

    • screwed up f/u by: ScottK

      May 20, 2010, 21:17

      Well, it's been a couple days since I admitted to something stupid here in the journal. We talked yesterday and my infraction is being treated like I bombed…

    • from facebook by: ScottK

      May 20, 2010, 06:49

      Someone had this posted "Give yourself the compassion you deserve for any and all past actions. Stop judging yourself harshly. All those errors and wrong…

    • changes by: ScottK

      May 16, 2010, 12:54

      It may go without saying, or it might be the oldest saying there is, but it must be said. Now, I am going to hack this bitch up, but this is the general gist…

    • thoughts by: ScottK

      May 11, 2010, 08:26

      I am waking up on Tuesday feeling more like the blob than an action hero. I remember when - not so long ago - nothing could get in my way. I remember when my…

    • words can heal by: ScottK

      May 10, 2010, 20:44

      So, tonight I had a nice conversation with buddy David who is staying with me temporarily. I asked a stupid question that started the dialog, but he gave me…

    • updated me by: ScottK

      May 9, 2010, 23:30

      So, I have been toying about another major renovation on my personal site, and here it is. Symbolism has always been something that appealed to me. Note the…

    • scott kay imaginarium of the daft and deluded by: ScottK

      April 3, 2010, 09:48

      So, though I have been out of work for much of the last year, I keep trying to find my niche. It keeps avoiding me. Having said that, I was feeling like life…

    • another vent by: ScottK

      March 18, 2010, 08:16

      So, I started dating someone in the beginning of January. As a matter of fact, I met him officially on my birthday. I was lucky to meet someone not steeped in…

    • stagnant by: ScottK

      March 18, 2010, 08:09

      Hi all.. as usual I am apologizing for not writing much recently. Seems that my outlets have been better served on Facebook or Twitter. Small blocks of text…

    • shalom yo! by: ScottK

      February 10, 2010, 17:54

      I just read through my site a little and made a few minor changes, but what I am taken by is how crappy I phrase a lot of things. I need an editor!!! ha ha…

    • good morning by: ScottK

      February 1, 2010, 08:08

      I want to have a positive outlook, but it is so hard. I see my weight sky rocketing and I see myself as becoming less and less significant in the world. My…

    • monday by: ScottK

      January 25, 2010, 08:53

      How do you spend a weekend working on something, building something, and then find yourself sitting along on a Monday realizing nothing feels right. How does…

    • days... by: ScottK

      January 22, 2010, 08:54

      There are times when I feel like I am living life in a vacuum. It's more than 2 steps forward and 3 steps back... it is a suction from behind. Today I feel…

    • whatta week by: ScottK

      January 3, 2010, 22:45

      So here I am on New Years and boy what an great night it was... took a couple days to receover. It was also great seeing ALL the people I got to see. I must…

    • happy birthday by: ScottK

      December 29, 2009, 08:58

      I am officially middle aged as of this moment in time. It's come like a bus and whacko! ha ha ha... whacko being the operative word. I have been doing a lot of…

    • anyone seen that anchor? by: ScottK

      December 23, 2009, 09:04

      So I have had a lot of ups and down emotionally lately and I am attributing it to the season. The holidays are tough on a person whether they actively know it…

    • another Week by: ScottK

      December 21, 2009, 20:34

      So, I cannot say a lot has gone right lately and my personal sense of self seems to be going a little haywire. Something is misfiring, I keep feeling like the…

    • splat - not for mom to read by: ScottK

      December 17, 2009, 11:13

      I have been holding off making any entries because it seems like a lot of the feedback I get from some people is that I am whining a lot. I've been called a…

    • nice night by: ScottK

      December 7, 2009, 21:51

      Well, today at work I designed another new site for the company and I think it looks good. We'll see tomorrow if I still feel that way. I think it delivered…

    • thoughts by: ScottK

      December 6, 2009, 12:36

      As great as last weekend was this weekend was a face plant. Ugh... I got my head wrapped around some plans on Friday so fiercely that the consideration to say…

    • Curious Capricorn/Dragon by: ScottK

      November 30, 2009, 06:49

      This one Astrology that I check in with combines my sun sign Capricorn with my Chinese sigh Dragon and in the reading below it is as if they know me well. Not…

    • Heading off tomorrow.... by: ScottK

      November 26, 2009, 22:06

      Updated a lot of my visuals and content on my personal site tonight instead of working on another project. Shame on me. John stopped by to visit me after…

    • Thanksgiving Day by: ScottK

      November 26, 2009, 17:00

      My phone has been either ringing or messaging like mad today with some very nice greetings of this, one of my favorite holidays of the year. Why? Because I get…

    • 2day by: ScottK

      November 25, 2009, 09:19

      I was thinking on the way to work this morning how much as I was a younger adult I thought I had the world in the palm of my hand. I thought about how much it…

    • quick catchup by: ScottK

      November 22, 2009, 20:04

      Well, been a lot on my mind and a lot of things I wanted to write, but I guess tonight is going to be a series of short bursts.1. my car is gone and I miss it…

    • just a quick note by: ScottK

      November 2, 2009, 07:58

      There is never enough time in a day. When I was unemployed I had plenty of time, but had a problem getting the things done that needed to get completed anyway.…

    • holloween approaches by: ScottK

      October 27, 2009, 08:32

      I have never been such a great fan of Halloween - mainly because the time represents more important things to me. It's fall - for one. It is also a strong…

    • Post #4: Holloween by: ScottK

      October 15, 2009, 09:31

      There are a bunch of parties and event on the 24th. I want to go to them all... but am focusing on one of them for now. I bought elements for my costume…

    • Post #3: what just happen? by: ScottK

      October 15, 2009, 08:55

      It appears I was offered a job today, but there was a problem. They need me to have my own laptop. Ugh... it seems like an interesting company and I am looking…

    • Post #2 : Daddy Issues by: ScottK

      October 15, 2009, 08:36

      So, I have been reflecting on a lot of things and about a year or more ago I got to the point where I realized that my biological father was never going to be…

    • Post#1 changes by: ScottK

      October 15, 2009, 08:30

      Started trying to get rid of some of the junk I collected over the last decade and all the bad mojo going along with it. Sold some shelves and the sideboard I…

    • change by: ScottK

      October 7, 2009, 19:22

      I need a David Bowie song about now.Yes, this has been some interesting times with the end of Burning Man and catching up financially. I let a lot of things go…

    • if you give a shit by: ScottK

      October 7, 2009, 18:59

      for anyone reading this parade of horsecrap that is my life, there are some updates on have been commenting on. Namely John - David - Mark...JOHN: has been…

    • more grousing by: ScottK

      September 20, 2009, 22:39

      When I try to capture something profound in my own head, I see it like a movie. Like, I saw my life as a walk along a long forest trail. Sometimes there were…

    • thoughtless swill by: ScottK

      September 17, 2009, 22:28

      So, if you go scrolling back I have been doing more whining and kvetching about some of my recent relationships (not dating relationships but people I have…

    • week1: this is my new year by: ScottK

      September 10, 2009, 10:38

      It has been a tough week. Last week I spent 8 days in the fantasy land that is Burning Man where the world outside virtually ceased to exist. I did have to…

    • back on earth by: ScottK

      September 8, 2009, 14:08

      i am back from Burning Man now... on the way home we ate at Burger King in Tonopah and were posioned. Nacie also says she is not feeling well. With that and…

    • Tom by: ScottK

      August 24, 2009, 23:32

      I just took Tom out for a walk...Right before this event took place Tom comes over to me, stands 3 feet away, and stares at me. It's a clear sign he wants to…

    • cracked out by: ScottK

      August 23, 2009, 07:48

      What to do when 1 million things need to be done in 7 days or less. What to do when there are no resources to do it, too? Well, the answer is I have no friggin…

    • Anxiety Sucks by: ScottK

      August 17, 2009, 22:43

      It is so close to the departure for Burning Man and I am really nervous. I am sitting here in a sea of bills and behind on a car payment and feel like I cannot…

    •  by: ScottK

      August 16, 2009, 21:19

      It's funny with all the bitching and kvetching about friends that - occasionally - there are some nice surprised. Mexican-John materialized this weekend after…

    • friends? lovers? tormentors? Chaos! by: ScottK

      August 13, 2009, 11:14

      So, I have a lot of things to think about these days. There is a storm brewing which we will call chaos. Chaos breeds change and the first thing I do is look…

    •  by: ScottK

      August 11, 2009, 10:09

      In the process of coming to terms with a lot of things, I feel this huge shadow coming over me. As the world darkens I feel like there is a short row of…

    •  by: ScottK

      August 9, 2009, 11:20

      So, I woke up this morning looking around myself and feeling like such a fraud. It's funny to make a statement like that, but one of the things I have been…

    • WHO THE HELL ARE YOU???? by: ScottK

      August 4, 2009, 10:50

      So, I manage site vistor statistics that are working behind the scenes of the web site and I can see where people are from that are visiting. One of them is…

    • New motivation by: ScottK

      July 29, 2009, 11:22

      My new word for Now to September - simplifyI'd like to say I am done carrying around a lot of baggage in this world. I have stuff that goes back to Adolfo -…

    •  by: ScottK

      July 23, 2009, 12:30

      Seems like such a long week. Kaidy was here for the first part of it and it was really nice having him here. I hope I did not bore him too much, but we seemed…

    • tuesDay by: ScottK

      July 21, 2009, 08:00

      Just thought I would make a note. This year is passing slowly... yet one of my big milestones for the year is coming up... yes - Burning Man. I am looking…

    • Shades of Gray by: ScottK

      July 16, 2009, 09:11

      It's been a wierd week and I am trying to review my life situation and determine where I need to go and what sacrifices I need to make. It's frustrating as I…

    • newEyes by: ScottK

      July 10, 2009, 22:17

      I felt like this whole day was different. We're past that crazy period after the full moon - and it's a f'd up period - but now there is renewed energy in the…

    • soWh... by: ScottK

      July 8, 2009, 22:34

      It's been an interesting week. I started it off with a lot of fun and thought - coming to some conclusions. As many know I started a new journey at the end of…

    • mondayMonday by: ScottK

      July 6, 2009, 10:36

      So, I had some time to think about this guy I got involved with and think that it as a huge mistake. He has no idea and no concept of empathy; which is fine as…

    • change by: ScottK

      July 1, 2009, 21:33

      Change and Chaos go hand in hand. In this case chaos is in the heart. I started seeing someone recently and then I was told - I am not physically attracted to…

    • a happy place by: ScottK

      June 30, 2009, 08:58

      Okay, so I did a lot of grousing last night on here with 2 whole entries. Maybe it opened me up a bit and now I feel a little more expressive. I hope it is in…

    • Daddy by: ScottK

      June 29, 2009, 20:47

      Until about age 10 I think I had a good relationship with my dad. There were a lot of pictures (see the background of this blog) that show us connected. The…

    • 1/2 way to 2010 by: ScottK

      June 29, 2009, 20:24

      Well, I have not written here in a while and have fallen away from it for a bit because things have been convoluted. My ability to relate my feelings or…

    • soLongSince by: ScottK

      June 4, 2009, 19:36

      I'm writing this under unpleasant conditions.... brain death. Yeah, last night I did not get much sleep and was out partying with a freind. I was mizzzerable…

    • runnin' on empty by: ScottK

      May 12, 2009, 11:39

      Just a quick note, because I realized I have not said much here lately. It's been no secret I have been hoping to meet someone to date. I thought that meeting…

    • Update by: ScottK

      April 21, 2009, 23:25

      The Lemon Cleanse died the Wednesday night after. I lasted almost 3 whole days. So, whoever commented on the last entry - IT'S NOT THAT EASY YOU BRAT!!! Ha ha…

    • Monday again... by: ScottK

      April 13, 2009, 18:17

      Monday just keeps coming and coming. This Monday I decided to start a new diet and with that launch, it is a fast (sp?). Yes, the lemon cleanse (aka the…

    • puttingItOff by: ScottK

      April 12, 2009, 08:48

      One of my goals this year - along with graduating college - was to lose the weight that I accumulated through the 1st degree and kept through teh second one.…

    • earningCashola by: ScottK

      April 1, 2009, 07:46

      Where is the payola? ha ha ha ... So as I site here and look to the future and I optimistic something good will come my way. I am just trying to get my feet on…

    • innerMe by: ScottK

      March 23, 2009, 11:58

      empty... feeling very frustrated and adrift right now. I fantasized about being independant as a designer but I am not sure I am equiped for that? I am asking…

    • recoveryHeadache by: ScottK

      March 16, 2009, 19:11

      This weekend was another ...stock with the Burningman group. It was a huge party in the desert and it was good as usual. I think I am feeling like ... maybe…

    • oneWeekLater by: ScottK

      March 9, 2009, 18:08

      It was a busy week and with all these allergines in the air I am gettin my ass kicked big time. I am do popping the over-the-counter supplies and probably…

    • worryTime by: ScottK

      February 24, 2009, 08:49

      I worry too much and I often let stuff stress me out that really is not as major as it seems. That is pretty normal for most people I think. I guess I…

    • thanksBut... by: ScottK

      February 21, 2009, 08:07

      On my post from last week I got some kind and supportive words. Some people made comments on the post while some sent me an email directly. If you are getting…

    • thursDay by: ScottK

      February 12, 2009, 09:15

      One week of unemployment down and though I have made some efforts to look for work most of my energy was directed at school and related projects. The thing is…

    • faceBook answer gone awry by: ScottK

      February 9, 2009, 10:23

      Ondreg on faceBook asked me about what was going on... I got a case of diarhea of the mouth... here is what I wrote:"So much, baby. School is wrapping up in 6…

    • crapOla by: ScottK

      February 6, 2009, 18:01

      I am unemployed.

    • theJourney by: ScottK

      January 26, 2009, 18:42

      Tonight I had an interesting evening with a local nude yoga group I enjoy. A guy was there I met once before, named Shawn, whom I had also spoke to on the…

    • killerStress by: ScottK

      January 24, 2009, 07:03

      As I progress to finally getting my BS in 8 weeks and counting, there is a tremendous sense of pressure and stress that is mounting to such a level I have…

    • broken*Kaput by: ScottK

      January 22, 2009, 22:53

      There has been a lot of things that have weighed heavily on me lately. Some of my demons have come back to haunt me and with all the pressure on my head it has…

    • the hole by: ScottK

      January 12, 2009, 06:20

      Since this weekend, there has been something eating at me. I imagine I am not the only one who feels this way, but I feel like I am walking around with a big…

    • Chowderstock @ Kingman Wash by: ScottK

      January 11, 2009, 22:09

      The party was amazing. Click here to link to the pictures and read the diary entry on my Burningman Blog. I'm plum tired out.... going to bed. Happy Allan?

    • stress x10 by: ScottK

      January 9, 2009, 07:17

      This has been a slow moving week with the event coming up this weekend. I am so excited for this Burningman thing that I have been waiting for - literally for…

    • New Year 2009 by: ScottK

      January 1, 2009, 21:51

      So, my diary carries yet another year of my never ending babble. There has been this subtle change of identity forming over the last 6 months and some or most…

    • 44 by: ScottK

      December 30, 2008, 07:18

      It's here... getting close to middle 40's. I can say this birthday completely and totally sucked balls. Not in a good way either. I got a lot ... a LOT of well…

    • catching up by: ScottK

      December 28, 2008, 16:31

      Here I am catching up again. Half a month passes and some things have changed... one of which is the name of this web site. Yes, I changed domain names again…

    • from minnie by: ScottK

      December 12, 2008, 17:28

      There comes a point in your life when you realize what matters most, what never did, who won't anymore... and who always will.So, don't worry about people from…

    • wandering thoughts and feet by: ScottK

      December 7, 2008, 19:54

      What a year it has been. I mentioned once that this was going to be a year of change. It has been... but as much as things change they remain the same. As some…

    • more Family matters by: ScottK

      December 3, 2008, 15:11

      I am getting a lot off my chest today. I should get my ass back to work....When I told my mom that I had fallen out with my 'dad' and that my idiot brother-in-l…

    • Daddy Issues by: ScottK

      December 3, 2008, 14:48

      So, if you have known me in recent years then you also know that I have valued my family highly. I have enjoyed a good relationship with them for a few years…

    • The universe pooped on my head and called it snow! by: ScottK

      December 3, 2008, 12:34

      So, this has been an interesting time and I may have mentioned on a previous entry about a perception that a lot of things in our universe are changing.…

    • just me by: ScottK

      November 23, 2008, 08:21

      This last week was wrought with anxiety. They laid off 2 people at work and my health benefits were taken away; all of this in order for me to keep my job.…

    • stress level 16.5 out of 10 by: ScottK

      November 20, 2008, 07:14

      Stress factor Ultra FuckedYes, in the last week there are a lot of foundation elements that exist in my life that are on rocky soil. It started with a download…

    • ChiliStock Camping Trip by: ScottK

      November 18, 2008, 18:39

      This pic and others are on the burningman blog. See bm2009 in the top menu.This is the other side of the story. I ended up going on my own because I had no…

    • Issues by: ScottK

      November 13, 2008, 08:55

      So, my social life is slowly improving and I am slowly making some connections outside of my tight little circle. It's nice, but this city is so full of sick…

    • Risotto anyone??? by: ScottK

      November 13, 2008, 08:53

      There is a base for making a Risotto that you can take in a variety of directions in order to extract different flavors depending on any additional dished you…

    • Closet Case Dialog by: ScottK

      November 3, 2008, 07:55

      This is a conversation I have had with the same person for 5 years. He is a closeted married guy that I know and is just so confused. Note how he decribes…

    • monday monday by: ScottK

      October 27, 2008, 07:21

      I guess there are times when you are faced with the world around you and ... well, I seems like with debt and stress one feels 3 feet underground. I have a lot…

    • blue and orange by: ScottK

      October 22, 2008, 06:33

      Today I am dressed very loudly. Orange and blue... my mohawk is very spiky... I should say my bad mohawk. What's got me so punked up today? hmmm

    • reading back by: ScottK

      October 20, 2008, 06:29

      damn, I just read through my latest entries... don't i sound like a sad-sack!

    • fucked weekend by: ScottK

      October 20, 2008, 06:07

      This weekend was a lot about struggling with emotional shit. My mom was put into the hospital on Friday for a clot in her lung and an irregular heart beat. My…

    • babbling by: ScottK

      October 11, 2008, 22:35

      There are days when my self esteem hits the dirt. Tonight I went to Coming Out Day festivities in Las Vegas. It was a nice event, but the headliner had not…

    • drowning by: ScottK

      October 6, 2008, 05:08

      Another weekend past and I am waking up this Monday feeling very reflective. I am deep in my own head again. I feel very lost in where I shold be in life…

    • gay.com article worth reading by: ScottK

      October 5, 2008, 07:58

      I found this article on gay.com. 99.9% of gay men out there under 40 could never conceive of anything but external gratification of their self-esteem; yes…

    • another weekend by: ScottK

      October 5, 2008, 07:44

      On the backside of another weekend, I am feeling very reflective and thoughtful about where I am in life again. Seems like I go through this a lot. I get an…

    • pardon my frustration by: ScottK

      September 27, 2008, 12:35

      I was thinking today about how flaky so many people have been. Just trying to get people together seems like I am asking someone to donate an organ. But, there…

    • pondering by: ScottK

      September 25, 2008, 20:23

      The week of finals is almost over. Can't say it has been all that bad. In fact - I am counting myself fairly lucky. We had a lot of projects and and they are…

    • Sunday... again by: ScottK

      September 21, 2008, 22:05

      Another weekend bites the dust. Today was a day worthy of the record books in some way, because it was liberating. Yes, the same party atmosphere at the…

    • romance gets a rug burn by: ScottK

      September 14, 2008, 21:40

      As mentioned in several of my previous posts... this is an homage (sp?) to the end of Summer 2008. This was from our outing at the pool. This is Ben with me in…

    • Burning Man 2009: Official Announcement by: ScottK

      September 12, 2008, 12:29

      I am officially announcing an organized trip to Burning Man for 2009; man you got to do some things in life at least once. So, I will be adding a section of my…

    • hurrican ike by: ScottK

      September 12, 2008, 06:59

      I just got this satellite image off the Weather Channel and can;t help but feel that Ike looks a little angry here. My Texas peeps better batten the hatches!…

    • asshole by: ScottK

      September 9, 2008, 21:15

      I spend too much time in my own head. My brain is going 20% faster than the rest of me and I do not even get the benefit of the intellect hat could potentially…

    • fed up - jaded fuckin' bitch by: ScottK

      September 8, 2008, 21:24

      this is going to sound very bi-polar but I am just fed up with the people I have been meeting. I was driving home from school tonight thinking about my…

    • hm by: ScottK

      September 6, 2008, 21:17

      So - it's "feelin' - sorry - for - myself" time again. I am getting sick of boring Saturday evenings with nothing or no-one to do. All the boys I know are busy…

    • no comment by: ScottK

      September 4, 2008, 21:29

      Not a single person commented on my previous post. I was hoping someone would... and I granted posting access to some of my friends. I put things into it I…

    • Labor Day - Summer 08 by: ScottK

      September 1, 2008, 21:01

      Summer 08 can go into the history books as one of the best summers I can remember. Why? Well, this weekend is just concluding and so is the latest weekend of…

    • grunt by: ScottK

      August 27, 2008, 21:01

      I am always tired and work is wearing me down... no life is wearing me down. I literally am living for Sunday's. Sunday is my play day... and this summer has…

    • delete by: ScottK

      August 26, 2008, 21:48

      I deleted the post I made recently talking about a guy I fell for... more like fell on my face. That is exactly how dating has been for me lately. I really…

    • thinkin by: ScottK

      June 26, 2008, 21:37

      Life has been decent lately with some obvious exceptions. I am taking a new perspective on life here in LV while looking forward to getting through this last…

    • John update... by: ScottK

      June 26, 2008, 21:27

      ...for those who give a shit.I was carrying a lot of anger toward John in a way that was not really productive. You see, as you might be able to get from the…

    • Dear John - by: ScottK

      June 22, 2008, 15:24

      I have this in my head a lot and decided to write John and tell him how I felt about where our friendship has gone to. I figured out there has not been a…

    • I walk alone... by: ScottK

      June 21, 2008, 19:18

      Johnny Cash - love ya baby. Today I did something empowering. I went to the movies by myself. I am in a time when I feel like what friends I have they are…

    • Sunday Bloooz by: ScottK

      June 15, 2008, 20:54

      Since just before I left for the Bahamas I have been dealing with a very disappointing event that left me reeling a bit. You see, there is this guy I have…

    • Editing the Blog by: ScottK

      June 15, 2008, 20:53

      I suck... I forgot to finish editing this. God, I thought I was done... NOT!

    • BTW editing this again.... by: ScottK

      June 5, 2008, 21:10

      I started editing this again and so please excuse the rough spots.

    • Day #1 in the Bahamas by: ScottK

      June 5, 2008, 20:53

      The trip out of Las Vegas was not looking good at first. US Airways is the single worst airline I have ever flown on and I've flown! The flight was scheduled…

    • Vacation by: ScottK

      June 4, 2008, 17:01

      Leaving tonight for the Bahamas and am feeling a lot of anxiety about the whole thing. I am going with a whole bunch of heterosexuals and they are usually ...…

    • hotness by: ScottK

      June 2, 2008, 21:46

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    • knock-knock by: ScottK

      June 1, 2008, 19:50

      IF ANYONE is reading this at all... how do you like the changes? I am not completely finished yet. I want to add a menu at the top. Meanwhile, Most of my web…

    • Dating - Men are Dirt by: ScottK

      May 31, 2008, 23:43

      I have now been single again for a year. Can't say the experience has been rewarding... no not in the least. I am pretty sure if I had not met Adolfo when I…

    •  by: ScottK

      May 25, 2008, 21:50

      The end of the school quarter is coming like a freight train and so is summer. I have the benefit of a lot of things happening in June. I go on vacation in…

    • Hottest Day of the Year - So Far by: ScottK

      May 20, 2008, 10:15

      So I cam home last night and saw this. The day was the hottest of the year so far. 106! Holy hell!!!.. so to speak. If these melted any more I would have had…

    • Heart Attack!!! by: ScottK

      May 16, 2008, 21:59

      My dad had a heart attack that could have really killed him last Saturday. Thankfully he is okay. There have been a few things that make me look at my parents…

    • School by: ScottK

      May 16, 2008, 21:55

      Its getting to the end of the quarter and I found out we have 4 weeks off!!!! Wow wow wow!!! BUT it is tough and this quarter is butt-raping me in a bad way...…

    • Tonight it stung by: ScottK

      May 16, 2008, 21:49

      I want to embrace a lot of people in my life and I would say I am open to being a friend or more; E.G.: a guy at school whom I really did not trust because he…

    • Sunday Mourning by: ScottK

      April 20, 2008, 08:42

      I'd like to be able to report anything special but - life these days is anything but. I am always behind at school and have no real free time. Even today, I…

    • Lost my Cell Phone by: ScottK

      April 12, 2008, 05:47

      This has been a rough week. Last weekend's romp with John was really cool, but this week I am so so so so broke. My car is on fumes and the shelves are bare.…

    • The Weekend by: ScottK

      April 7, 2008, 20:00

      This was a pretty interesting cap to a week that was full of stress and frustration. I was in school all Saturday then went to the gym where I ended up in the…

    • a new day by: ScottK

      March 22, 2008, 21:48

      I feel fat... now I need to get my ass in gear. Had a nice dinner with Adolfo again tonight. We went to the gourmet restaurant of the year... yes - red…

    • Spring is Here by: ScottK

      March 20, 2008, 20:31

      I am sitting here watching LOST and am thinking about how fucked up some days are. It's a full moon tonight and the whole day has represented that. The night…

    • ugh by: ScottK

      March 7, 2008, 06:41

      what a week! last saturday i let my blood sugar drop way way too low and was so dizzy, so I ate a quick bowl of cereal when I got home. It was a slow comeback,…

    • i'm a complete idiot by: ScottK

      February 10, 2008, 11:53

      Life is just kinda wierd sometimes. As much as a person keeps setting goals to take them ahead, fate keeps kicking a guy in the balls. It's just a reminder…

    • thoughts by: ScottK

      February 7, 2008, 22:13

      right now a lot of life's little things seem like they are a lot more than what they are. i am really unhappy being single. yet, at the same time, i am glad to…

    • whatever by: ScottK

      February 1, 2008, 17:47

      "If you're artistic by nature, dear Capricorn, expect a rush of inspiration to hit you today - along with an irresistible compulsion to start a new project and…

    • after all that by: ScottK

      January 30, 2008, 22:20

      okay... now that is off my mind. ...and before going to bed. People are so disappointing and with all the other shit life hands us on a daily basis it sucks…

    • you asked for it by: ScottK

      January 30, 2008, 22:03

      so... I have not been inspired to do any writing here in a while. Someone ... SOMEONE... sent me an email demanding some kind of response. I never have time…

    • ...this just in by: ScottK

      January 18, 2008, 18:07

      " Spirit and soul may seem out of balance today. A part of you may be longing to break from society and live a more spiritual life, but worldly responsibilities…

    • friday is monday by: ScottK

      January 18, 2008, 17:34

      each week seems to blur into the other and I forget to make entries here. It actually feels better in the head to let out a little of my thoughts here and…

    • just a little nuthin by: ScottK

      January 7, 2008, 22:46

      "Paperwork regarding financial matters may need to be executed at some point during the day, dear Capricorn. You're in the mood for some adventure, perhaps…

    • Thursday by: ScottK

      January 3, 2008, 22:58

      "Today you could receive word of a promotion or an exciting new challenge at work. Though this is something you have wanted for a long time now, you may…

    • Happy New Year by: ScottK

      January 1, 2008, 09:42

      You know who got such a shitty send off last year. With shit-heads like Britney and others here is a woman who scrapped and fought to make a life for her son…

    • ho ho ho... hum by: ScottK

      December 31, 2007, 19:35

      blah blah blah... this year is finally over. I can say my lack of spirit was unmatched. I would say my lack of attention to Christmas would only be rivaled by…

    • post holiday by: ScottK

      December 26, 2007, 08:24

      Christmas was not at 3285 this year and I can say that I am pretty okay with that. It would have been better had I been able to either be with family or have…

    • tuesday: supposed to rain tonight by: ScottK

      December 18, 2007, 18:30

      "Bring your thoughts down to Earth, dear Capricorn, especially later on tonight. You may be flip-flopping through the day like a fish out of water, but…

    • Sunday Night... oh, that was yesterday by: ScottK

      December 17, 2007, 23:23

      School is finished for the quarter and just working... I am trying to accomplish a few things during this time from school. I have a cooking gig for Christmas…

    • sherwood lost / other regrets by: ScottK

      December 9, 2007, 11:16

      School is wrapping up for the quarter and I am just thrilled; my stress level is way above a 10. I am getting to the point of "acceptance" for these grades and…

    • i need a hug... a bj wouldn't hurt either. HA! by: ScottK

      December 2, 2007, 15:25

      "Feel free to let it all out today, dear Capricorn. It is finally your turn to stand up and say what you feel. Don't let others push you around into places…

    • Sherwood Remembered by: ScottK

      December 2, 2007, 14:49

      I wrote my family telling them that there is no reason to hold grudges or take sides following the fall-out between the Sherwood-Aldermans and myself (my uncle…

    • the day after by: ScottK

      November 23, 2007, 08:26

      "You'll be full of ideas for improving your lifestyle, dear Capricorn, especially as it relates to your family. It is true that over the past few months you…

    • Happy Turkey Day by: ScottK

      November 22, 2007, 20:38

      "Deep inside, don't you have an urge to breathe a new spirit into your love life? But of course, some things are more easily said than done. Currently, you…

    • blah blah blah by: ScottK

      November 17, 2007, 23:07

      The holidays are finally getting here and with it... schedules and life takes turns unexpected. It's good and bad in ways, because it changes life's pace. As…

    • feelings... by: ScottK

      November 13, 2007, 12:50

      How does everyone like the new design? Holy frejoles peeps.... leave a comment below. It's funny (no funny ha-ha, but weird-funny) how emotions inside me are…

    • this week .... by: ScottK

      November 10, 2007, 17:25

      Deb and I went out for a bite last night and had pizza. We went to Metro Pizza which is one of the better and nicer parlors in this city. Well, until short…

    • snark by: ScottK

      November 6, 2007, 22:12

      I have not made an entry in a while. In honor of Deb, we went out for a bite tonight. So, I have to makes notes. We just went over to Paymons for Mediterranean…

    • the "f" word by: ScottK

      October 28, 2007, 22:32

      Deb left here a couple of hours ago staggering drunk and with a fist full of cheesecake and raw fruit. She stumbled and rolled in the grass, but after I picked…

    • self pity and a lot of wine by: ScottK

      October 23, 2007, 21:40

      "Things may seem a bit surreal for you today, dear Capricorn, so don't take other people's chatter too seriously. Today is a day to reach out and touch…

    • one more day... by: ScottK

      October 18, 2007, 08:03

      "Your emotions are charged with fury today, dear Capricorn, and you might feel explosive. Make sure you find healthy outlets for this energy, and put it to…

    • no complaints yet.... by: ScottK

      October 16, 2007, 16:28

      I think the pic I posted on my last entry might give some people the vapors (Deb), so here is a new one. She'll like this one. ...so when I was up last night I…

    • late night prattle by: ScottK

      October 15, 2007, 23:33

      I remember when...I am too wound up to go to bed right now. So, earlier today I took the wayward puppy over to a local vet who will make an effort to find a…

    • Monday by: ScottK

      October 15, 2007, 07:55

      "Today is a day for celebration, dear Capricorn. There is a positive, loving energy in the air. Don't hesitate to open a bottle of champagne tonight simply in…

    • good morning by: ScottK

      October 10, 2007, 08:28

      "Appreciate the good things you have in your life today, dear Capricorn. Don't let another day go by without sitting down and really paying homage to the…

    • diarrhea by: ScottK

      October 9, 2007, 07:42

      "Your dreams work out quite nicely in your head, dear Capricorn, but the problem now is turning them into some sort of real life scenario. Be careful of taking…

    • Deprevations by: ScottK

      October 3, 2007, 07:40

      "Don't let yourself be manipulated by needy friends, dear Capricorn! With today's planetary energies, it's a good time to think about setting clear boundries.…

    • Today has been a bummer... by: ScottK

      October 2, 2007, 16:31

      "You'll probably encounter a bit of opposition along with today's planetary energies, dear Capricorn. Even those who are usually right behind you will seem to…

    • Fall is Coming by: ScottK

      October 1, 2007, 08:28

      "A public gathering of some kind could attract you and your family tonight, dear Capricorn. Perhaps you'll arrange to meet some friends there. You may feel…

    • my brain by: ScottK

      September 30, 2007, 07:14

      "Sometimes your daydreaming may lead you way out of your body into a place well beyond time and space, dear Capricorn. Your romantic nature wants to escape…

    • Anger Management by: ScottK

      September 26, 2007, 22:25

      "Look for healthy ways to express any anger you're feeling today, dear Capricorn. While emotions are not always something that we can control, how we express…

    • i dunno 'bout this one... i can kinda see it by: ScottK

      September 20, 2007, 17:44

      "It may be hard to go at your own pace, dear Capricorn, when you feel as if there are multiple sets of people moving in on your space and trying to get you to…

    • My New Address by: ScottK

      September 19, 2007, 20:46

      3285 Casey Drive #203Las Vegas, NV 89120

    • Who's a Funny Bunny! by: ScottK

      September 19, 2007, 18:35

      So, I was torchuring Tom tonight with some bunny ears that were on clearance at Petsmart. God knows why I had to get them... but hell they were only .50. So,…

    • Scotty Nakamori by: ScottK

      September 19, 2007, 08:49

      I have an account on 2ndLife.Com and this is my avatar. I changed him a lot since I first got him. I have modeled him after the angel Uriel... oh the surprise.…

    • Capricorn... forgive thyself... by: ScottK

      September 19, 2007, 08:24

      "If your confidence has taken a beating lately, today's energy will go far in turning this around, dear Capricorn. Even if you feel like you've made too many…

    • dear Capricorn by: ScottK

      September 17, 2007, 08:28

      "An unusual sense of determination could drive you to complete a long-term goal that could change your life in some way. Perhaps you are seeking a new job, or…

    • the name is Evil, Dr. Evil by: ScottK

      September 16, 2007, 08:22

      After everything yesterday I find myself expereincing a lot of reflection. In fact, some might say I am looking back. What causes that is this... this year my…

    • And this... by: ScottK

      September 15, 2007, 09:06

      I found this picture as I was looking at some of my stuff. This is how I looked when I first met Adolfo in 1994ish... that pic in the background was from a…

    • WTF happened to me? by: ScottK

      September 15, 2007, 08:52

      I took these pics 5 minutes ago and looked at them... I look like dog shit. OMG look at how my eye lids are half-masted and the huge highway lines around my…

    • diarrhea of the brain by: ScottK

      September 14, 2007, 22:41

      "Do you want to explore new horizons, dear Capricorn? If you're keen to plan a trip, you must first decide where and with whom you'll go. Or, you might find…

    • update by: ScottK

      September 14, 2007, 22:13

      I ended up canceling the truck I reserved for the move and am sitting pat for the moment. I don’t have the cash to make any big changes right now. I have…

    • moving on... ...? by: ScottK

      September 13, 2007, 15:48

      "Give your life meaning today by truly feeling the beauty in every moment you live, dear Capricorn. There is no need to beat yourself up about the past, so…

    • moving? by: ScottK

      September 12, 2007, 08:48

      "Today is your day, dear Capricorn, so don't blow it. There is a great deal of positive energy coming your way, urging you to get moving. Live your dreams and…

    • oh crap... you mean just another day? by: ScottK

      September 9, 2007, 08:35

      "Things may get a bit rough for you, dear Capricorn, during the next few weeks, especially in the department of love and romance. You are likely to find that…

    • 05 August 2007 by: ScottK

      September 5, 2007, 10:20

      I have not made a significant update since the date listed in the title. Since then my job prospects seem to have gone down the toilet - here in Portland - and…

    • the magic of the stars by: ScottK

      September 5, 2007, 10:17

      "You may be confused when you find yourself pulling away from something that you may have felt extremely confident about on a previous date. Remember, dear…

    • another exciting day by: ScottK

      August 5, 2007, 12:08

      "Cupid has shot his arrow in your heart today, dear Capricorn, so snuggle up closely with the object of your desire. You will find yourself feeling more…

    • a day loose on oregon by: ScottK

      August 4, 2007, 20:14

      "Today is a fantastic day for you to take action, dear Capricorn. Your eagerness to strike out on new territory is being heightened by a drive to experience…

    • today by: ScottK

      July 31, 2007, 19:19

      "One of the important lessons of the day for you, dear Capricorn, is to remember that emotions are a powerful thing and that they should be recognized and…

    • today i bring you... by: ScottK

      July 30, 2007, 07:06

      "Adjustments may need to be made for you to relate well to people and situations today, dear Capricorn. Somehow things are a bit off kilter and you may find…

    • new phone today by: ScottK

      July 26, 2007, 16:54

      If you have not read yesterday's blog, skip down and read it first. I got a new phone today to replace the one lost into the blue abyss yesterday. My hand has…

    • Scott goes to Vegas and ... loses Phone!!!!! by: ScottK

      July 25, 2007, 16:08

      so... I got back from Las Vegas today okay. It was a weird trip in some ways, but I am glad I went. My plane was late leaving SFO... which makes me wonder why…

    • Kiyo by: ScottK

      July 22, 2007, 11:21

      OMG he is just so fucking hot and sexy. hmmm....!

    • ha ha ha! by: ScottK

      July 22, 2007, 11:18

      This is my Uncle Eddie... also known as the Eggman (www.edwardeggman.com) yo! This is him on any typical day chillin out in front of the house. I snapped a…

    • the lost cause by: ScottK

      July 20, 2007, 21:27

      Another week down the shaft... 2 weeks into this new school and I am now certain that the adviser at the school made his program out to be something more than…

    • barriers.... by: ScottK

      July 17, 2007, 21:36

      There are some days when I walk around and I feel like there is nothing inside of me. As I walked to school this morning from my distant parking spot... I had…

    • on second thought by: ScottK

      July 16, 2007, 22:06

      So, I drove into Portland today to take care of some personal business and in spite of my google maps driving plan I got really lost. I drove through the City…

    • the world according to Adolfo... by: ScottK

      July 16, 2007, 21:59

      what sucks is when I have to admit Adolfo is right. we talked on the phone today and he pointed out to me saying: "you know we are not together anymore,…

    • happy sunday by: ScottK

      July 15, 2007, 18:23

      I've had a headache the whole day. I stared my homework late this morning and got through some of it. Meant to be more ahead of the whole business by now. As…

    • good evening by: ScottK

      July 11, 2007, 16:19

      i am in school again as i write this... between classes. i am trying to do things that improve life here in portland... i.e. get a job or some source of…

    • Day #1 of School by: ScottK

      July 10, 2007, 22:06

      Today started off very nicely and being the first day of school, I can say with a great amount of relief that it was good. My first class was my first…

    • Song of Sam by: ScottK

      July 9, 2007, 22:04

      Another day passes slowly into twilight and I am nearly ready for bed. I struggle to remain positive and hopeful that this move was a good idea. Not entirely…

    • hmmm... change of thought by: ScottK

      July 8, 2007, 08:33

      Sam wrote an interesting piece today on his mySpace blog that seems to strike at home following my previous entry from earlier this morning. I wanted to write…

    • stressed out monkey by: ScottK

      July 8, 2007, 08:05

      One day from school... so far it's not a place I am looking forward to being at. My $$ for school is quickly running out and I am looking at the chance of not…

    • distress - red light flashing by: ScottK

      July 7, 2007, 14:15

      I woke up about 4 am this morning so stressed out and worried about everything. This is not my first anxiety attack here. In as many as 3 previous occasions I…

    • Adolfo by: ScottK

      July 3, 2007, 22:31

      So, I talked to Adolfo on the phone today and it was kinda weird. Other than the fact I woke him up, I can't help but wonder what he is thinking. I know I…

    • Oregon by: ScottK

      June 30, 2007, 17:41

      Here I am having spend my first night in my bed here... last night I slept on the floor and Tom seemed nervous the whole night that this was all some horribly…

    • in Oregon they say... by: ScottK

      June 29, 2007, 21:03

      I am underneath uncle Eddie. Yes, I am in the same house but have the bottom floor. I'll post pictures tomorrow. I am too tired tonight trying to set this…

    • omgwamid by: ScottK

      June 26, 2007, 20:43

      so, moving day began this week and i am still still - still in las vegas trying to get out of here. by all means i should be able to leave here before lunch…

    • The Unemployed by: ScottK

      June 22, 2007, 07:43

      So, yesterday was my last day at the Venetian. It was an awesome day, overall, that many people were sincere and sweet about their well wishes. I got a lot of…

    • ... hey baby, been a while... how you doin'? by: ScottK

      June 17, 2007, 20:52

      After a long winter, a long dead silence, I am coming to terms with the end of many things. Chief among them is the fact that Adolfo and I have separated. He…

    • Vacation by: ScottK

      March 31, 2007, 07:24

      I have taken this week off from work because this was also the week I was off for school. It was all just time... just time to allow me to get some inner…

    • is anyone listening by: ScottK

      March 4, 2007, 22:40

      I know I have disapointed some people because I have not been as forthright in getting my diary updated. I have had less time. Life has been respectable and…

    • ramble & Sam & more ramble by: ScottK

      February 24, 2007, 14:02

      I have been tired a lot and feeling overwhelmed constantly. I'm really driving myself into the ground. That or I could just need to go to the doctor. I take…

    • blah blah blah by: ScottK

      February 12, 2007, 14:11

      Valentines Week? Adolfo's Birthday? All this crap and school on top of it all. Today is Monday and today is my Wednesday for work. Sucks that Inever get a day…

    • Anna Nicole Smith by: ScottK

      February 8, 2007, 19:56

      If you have not heard the news.... Anna Nicole Smith was found dead today. I am so bummed.. anyone who dismisses the girl is a fool. She played a dumb blonde…

    • the day after by: ScottK

      February 4, 2007, 20:42

      So, Sam is now gone. He left yesterday afternoon and headed off to a buddy in L.A. where he thought he could find some better oppurtunities. Alas, that is…

    • Chapter 39 by: ScottK

      February 3, 2007, 05:36

      Well, after all this stuff from yesterday... Same tells me he is leaving to go back to O.C. tomorrow becasue some oppurtunities have opened up. I wanted to…

    • Sam? by: ScottK

      February 2, 2007, 09:23

      Last night Adolfo had some words for me regarding our house-mate. aka the squatter... aka the platipus.... aka Sam.I made a written agreement with Sam the day…

    • happy friggin day by: ScottK

      January 30, 2007, 22:27

      It feels like life has been very topsy turvey. I complained about Adolfo grinding my balls to dust recently, but I also decided I am the cause of some of my…

    • paradox #4098 by: ScottK

      January 27, 2007, 11:58

      Recently there has been a lot to feel "out of sorts" for because I am feeling the pressure of how I managed to set up my life. I am literally sick because of…

    • it's all about the sushi by: ScottK

      January 6, 2007, 22:12

      After work I met Adolfo at Kaizan, whcih is a Sushi place I like a lot. It's across the street from the Hard Rock Casino down on Paradise and tases fantastic.…

    • just a few wurds by: ScottK

      January 6, 2007, 13:42

      In the coming days we're expecting visitors and Adolfo is a stress case. He's moody and not being very nice.... I hate when he gets this way. It makes me so…

    • jury duty by: ScottK

      January 5, 2007, 09:11

      For 3 days prior to today I have been in hell... serving on Jury duty. Banded with a group of people with a variety of domonating personalities... we left as a…

    • happy birthday to me by: ScottK

      December 29, 2006, 09:27

      Today is my birthday and so far this year is turning out to be one of change. The things I am used to seem different and I feel it inside as well as out. I…

    • Christmas Day by: ScottK

      December 25, 2006, 08:10

      Last night I was cooking for the same client I have for the last 3 years. It was a nice! Adolfo came and helped me on this occasion. This is the second time…

    • babbling incoherantly by: ScottK

      December 19, 2006, 21:54

      The website is coming along as anyone who might be reading this can see. I'm already disatisfied which means it will change again... soo. I'll be working on…

    • counting down b4 xmas by: ScottK

      December 17, 2006, 14:12

      the household seems to slowly return to normal... relatively speaking... as Adolfo is dealing with his mom's passing. Odly, we still feel her presence and…

    • sad inside by: ScottK

      December 1, 2006, 22:40

      This was another hard night here and and blow to Adolfo. His mom suffered either an aneurism or stroke tonight bad enough that she is currently in a coma and…

    • this week by: ScottK

      November 20, 2006, 07:58

      I have been very busy with school and it is hard to believe, but I am very close to finals for this quarter. I am also happy that there is no school until Jan…

    • My new ride... yeah me! by: ScottK

      October 27, 2006, 21:41

      I bought a new car yesterday.... I was nervous to say anything until the paperwork was finished this afternoon. I am so stoked!!!! It's a 2007 Element SC and…

    • on a new day by: ScottK

      October 24, 2006, 12:43

      I would like to see life make positive changes... I always feel adrift and these classes I have been taking have given me a little more self confidence. I also…

    • Platapuss Feet by: ScottK

      September 21, 2006, 06:36

      Another weekend in the dust... today is my Monday and it is hard to believe I will be returning to school in just a couple weeks. I am looking ahead with…

    • drama - advanced class by: ScottK

      September 17, 2006, 06:47

      Yesterday was a tough day and I am throughly grateful it ended. I think I already lamented in here how it started even if it was in a brief set of notes,…

    • ...groundhog day ... by: ScottK

      September 16, 2006, 13:32

      Today has turned out to be a really really really fucked up day so far. Last night I am told a freind of ours was killed in a car accident. There was a lot of…

    • Sam you Be by: ScottK

      September 14, 2006, 06:36

      Well, this is a lovely week. I am in this state of change right now with life in general and it seems to be affecting me in general and causing this rippling…

    • How's it look? by: ScottK

      September 9, 2006, 13:56

      Look cool!?!?!?!?! I amde some visual changes and updated a few piccies really quick. Yeah me!

    • tuday... todai... two-day... poo-day by: ScottK

      September 9, 2006, 06:14

      It's been a fairly quiet month. Being on my new schedule it leaves me with less time to screw around with personal stuff on the web and stuff. However, I did…

    • food and friends... not what you think by: ScottK

      August 27, 2006, 17:23

      I am watching Muriel's Wedding right now and spent a good part of the day just doing things as exciting as that. Okay, I went to the gym earlier and watched a…

    • all about the trimmings by: ScottK

      August 24, 2006, 07:14

      So... as mentioned in previous entries I groused enlessly about hao mizzzzerable life is on occasion and how I am stuck in big rut! Well, I also mentioned I…

    • IRS by: ScottK

      August 21, 2006, 12:46

      Since my last posting I have received several notes from peeps who checked out my pages... so with great relief I know people are actually stopping by on…

    • a few thingies... by: ScottK

      August 19, 2006, 15:44

      I have nothing to say.How unusual! I can;t type either. So... I am taking a few days off later this week and my dad is coming into souther Nevada for a little…

    • todays heavy sigh by: ScottK

      August 11, 2006, 07:14

      This is my third day on my day shift and I think I like it better. It is a little on the boring side, but at least when something needs to get done I can…

    • Eore in Las Vegas by: ScottK

      August 5, 2006, 15:09

      I have been hearing lately that I have a tendency to overreact to things? I've been getting this meeage from a variety of directions, not all realted to the…

    • another meaningless rant - such is my life by: ScottK

      August 1, 2006, 20:16

      So... Terry e-mail me the other day and he offers me some advice... offers but not really. He gives it anyway and I take it. He says I am bitching about…

    • minor crisis please by: ScottK

      July 28, 2006, 15:23

      I havwe been thinking about my last entry into the ol'd diary here. I love Isreali men. I really do... hot hot hot. Look at my hottest guys on page 1, at least…

    • Nuke the FUCKERS by: ScottK

      July 23, 2006, 13:40

      BBC News has been talking a lot about the war between Isreal and Lebennon and I find it very depressing. It seems to include the "Disaster of Bush" in Iraq as…

    • Sam I am... by: ScottK

      July 21, 2006, 15:16

      I found out today that people are actually still reading this thing. I wondered if anyone was paying attention anymore to the Book Of Uriel. It's not like I…

    • Sucks! by: ScottK

      July 15, 2006, 19:40

      This has been a nutty month. I drove off to see my dad on Wednesday in California and help him iwth a new computer he bought. It's been a couple months since…

    • HIV???? I'm a freak! by: ScottK

      July 3, 2006, 15:27

      I am on occasion a bit of a hypocontriac (sp?). Thanks MOM!A couple days ago I started getting an ichy throat and I was afraid I got food poisoning at first,…

    • Lake Tahoe by: ScottK

      June 24, 2006, 13:34

      Once again I have managed to ignore and neglect my diary. When I think about the majority of entries on this in recent years they seem to have been the "bitch…

    • matt damon? incoherant rant? you decide! by: ScottK

      June 7, 2006, 23:46

      I have been poor in my updates on the diary. My energy has been going in different directions and alll and nothing has been directed in any really positive…

    • Things.... by: ScottK

      May 22, 2006, 18:20

      I just read the Newsweek article above about Mary Magdaline. As you know, I also recently read the DaVinci Code. As much as I know Dan wrote a great fiction…

    • today is Friday/aka Monday by: ScottK

      May 12, 2006, 16:47

      Today is my Monday at work. Today is a good day. No real drama. Lot's of good energy floating around... which is good. There is a guy at work I don't like, but…

    • life lessons by: ScottK

      May 9, 2006, 14:23

      Recently I kvetched about my feinds issues and was missing a lot of people. When I was in Boston and when I was in Long Beach I had some really great freinds.…

    • Monday by: ScottK

      May 8, 2006, 11:23

      Yesterday was my first day back to work from my 1.5 week long vacation. Ugh! I know most people hate their jobs.... I hate mine. I like most of the people I…

    • mental note by: ScottK

      May 4, 2006, 20:39

      Today is the last day of Adolfo's vacation days and I pretty much reserved the day for him. We really did nothing. I made a nice dinner, we had a nice lunch,…

    • My Hottest Men - Apprentice by: ScottK

      May 2, 2006, 07:49

      I dunno... last night when the Apprentice was on I started thinking about how hot I think certain guys are and how much the current favorites (excluding Matt…

    • My Sunday Fuck Story by: ScottK

      April 30, 2006, 22:54

      There are days when one sees life twisted a little. Today was a really good day. I got permission from Adolfo to go to a pool party at the Blue Moon Resort and…

    • ... vacation hell week... by: ScottK

      April 26, 2006, 21:08

      I managed to put some bad mojo in the universe recently and have been suffering the last couple of days... usually by my own frustrations and issues. Today I…

    • just a day by: ScottK

      April 13, 2006, 00:04

      I got an awesome e-mail today from someone who said they read my journal (Diary) often and I felt so good about it. I am right now going on 21 hours since I…

    • Sybil Lives!!!! by: ScottK

      April 7, 2006, 05:37

      Things have been good with Adolfo and I. Let's see how long this lasts. We've done this before wherein I was ready to bail on the relationship because of his…

    • The Day After... 5th Anniversary by: ScottK

      April 1, 2006, 14:56

      Last night we had a few guests over to help us celebrate our 5 years together. Which included the year we spent together in the early ninties. I think it all…

    • over it by: ScottK

      March 26, 2006, 23:12

      it may not be worth bitching too much about. as usual i am pissed off at adolfo and i am about at the end of my rope with him. i find myself completely tired…

    • just a few wurdz.... by: ScottK

      March 21, 2006, 06:22

      I talked to Gary this moening and he asked if I was okay having read my previous blog. I'm usually okay, to be honest, but Adolfo goes up my nose. I am not…

    • Life sucking in drive (D) by: ScottK

      March 17, 2006, 23:49

      Life is so up and down... today I am feeling relly down. I get upset about the stupidest things and I let some things effect me to the point of physical and…

    • LVAC Gym by: ScottK

      March 15, 2006, 23:41

      I workout pretty regularly at the LVAC on Eastern and 215, thought I used to go to the Karen and Maryland gym. I get good workouts in but if anyone knows me I…

    • eyes wide shut by: ScottK

      March 12, 2006, 01:11

      Life is so fucking bizarre. There is an ancient belief that the people in our lives are there for a reason. Each of us has something we can learn from the…

    • Imagine That...? by: ScottK

      February 21, 2006, 04:20

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    • My job at the Venetian by: ScottK

      February 20, 2006, 05:50

      As you can see, as of this morning, there are more changes to the appearance of the web site. I have been diddling these changes in my head a few days now and…

    • Look at my Chest by: ScottK

      February 18, 2006, 20:58

      A couple weeks ago I mentioned a project I did. I build the top half of this cabinet set, but I decided afterward I did not really care for it much. So, it is…

    • February Madness!!!! by: ScottK

      February 10, 2006, 17:47

      I get so caught up in shit sometimes that I neglect this diary. I feel lik e nobody is reading it anymore and that I am dumping my words and expressions into…

    • Complete Mental Breakdown - Coming Soon by: ScottK

      January 27, 2006, 05:54

      I have a flood of things that are on my mind. Since the beginning of this year, I have been thinking about a lot of stuff. It is a concern of mine that life,…

    • ... yeah me .... by: ScottK

      January 24, 2006, 06:43

      I am feeling much better now. Yes, daddy Allan, baby is all better. I am actually going to go to they gym after work and get some exercixe today. I am very…

    • Dead Man Blogging by: ScottK

      January 23, 2006, 06:30

      Still sick... my life sucks. I am dying... somebody toss a daisy on my grave hole.... bwaaaaah!I am sucking snot, fighting an itchy throat, pooping my pants...…

    • Business and Getting the Business by: ScottK

      January 22, 2006, 06:12

      I am sick as hell... it all started the other day. I went to a party with Adolfo saying goodbye to his manager; she was a really cool chick. Anyway, this hot…

    • Bored and Nothing to Say by: ScottK

      January 16, 2006, 06:04

      Today is my Thursday and tomorrow I am going to be very busy with work because there is a special deal going on here that will last me all night long. I will…

    • a queer day by: ScottK

      January 14, 2006, 06:29

      This has been sorta a wierd couple days. Yesterday I was in a funny mood. I doubt it was because I knew it was Friday the 13th, but overall the day was ...…

    • Regrets by: ScottK

      January 13, 2006, 06:24

      I know how I am ... yest at the same time there is a lot about myself I either do not acknowledge or do not clue into. My family has told me stuff about myself…

    • Masons, Knights Templar, and Uriel by: ScottK

      January 9, 2006, 04:00

      I am so very thrilled that I got the web site to nearly perfect condition... now I need everyone else to cooperate... have YOUR settings set correctly, see the…

    • Are you happy? by: ScottK

      January 8, 2006, 06:22

      I asked Allan that question this morning and he answered me...yes. Then he went into this whole montage of "...in an idyllic world... blah blah blah"The fact…

    • Book of Uriel.Com by: ScottK

      January 7, 2006, 08:59

      I am getting ready for bed slowly, but Shirley (don't call me Shirley). Anyway, I have been working on this new site for a couple nights now... trying to get…

    • Book of Uriel.Com by: ScottK

      January 5, 2006, 05:53

      I bought another domain for myself. Well, Blue Angel Cafe was supposed to be my domain, but it blossomed into something else. It blossomed into a pretty cool…

    • It's my Burthday by: ScottK

      December 29, 2005, 23:53

      In the final minutes of my birthday I am slowly winding down... but since I just started my workshift... I cannot afford to wind down too far! I'm tired.…

    • Sam I am... by: ScottK

      December 27, 2005, 03:22

      I am worried about Sam. He worries me a lot. In fact the last few years he has been going topsy turvey through life. He is one of the most intellegent people I…

    • Post Christmas Tragedy! by: ScottK

      December 26, 2005, 05:44

      Well, another Christmas bites the dust. I worked myself so hard this week I amde myself totally sick and I am having a near death expereince as I type this! I…

    • I love magic.... oh Harry! by: ScottK

      December 25, 2005, 05:16

      I found this picture which appeares to be Daniel Ratcliffe and I nearly had an anurism. You see, he has a scene in the latest Harry Potter film in which he is…

    • Holiday Cheer by: ScottK

      December 23, 2005, 06:09

      The holidays are always a little on the rough side. Emotionally, temperamentally, as well as the abililty to have faith in other people. I once made an entry…

    • Insane in the Membrane by: ScottK

      December 20, 2005, 06:16

      When I feel stressed it affects me in a lot of different directions. I am concerned that I am driving myself nuts lately. This is not too unusual that I do…

    • I'm Upside Down.... by: ScottK

      December 19, 2005, 06:04

      I am "upside-down" .... I work all night and sleep all day. It's kinda wierd, but I have lots of energy at the wrong times of the day. Like, right now it is…

    • Music Day by: ScottK

      December 15, 2005, 04:35

      I decided to update my MP3 player for the first time in.... a long time. I put some Madonna (how gay!), Black Eyed Peas, and Gorillaz. I went on-line to iTunes…

    • Duck and Risotto / Web Designs by: ScottK

      December 12, 2005, 05:23

      I made roasted duck for dinner tonight with a mushroom risotto. The duck was the easy part... I boned that bitch and set her pieces on a rack in the oven to…

    • About Food and Bitching by: ScottK

      December 11, 2005, 04:36

      I made a nice dinner at home last night... when Adolfo came home I had started dinner for the two of us. I made a Basmati rice with two most excellent steaks.…

    • Consume This! by: ScottK

      December 10, 2005, 05:28

      Anonymous Lawyer is symbolic of the mental instability people are playing out publicly. He is a major figure in a prestigious L.A. Law Firm with a passive…

    • Kvetching 101 by: ScottK

      December 9, 2005, 02:07

      It's been a few days... this new schedule is something that takes a while to get used to. I sleep through most of the day... of which I can hardly remember…

    • Horseshit and Vegas Showgirls by: ScottK

      December 5, 2005, 00:58

      Life in Las Vegas has been ... different. As anxious as I have been to move on... events have been set into motion that may interrupt my plans to escape. The…

    • Losing my GRIP! on Sanity by: ScottK

      December 2, 2005, 13:11

      There are days when one is much better off just staying home. I am having one of those weeks, but yesterday was the cream on top. Have you ever had a day that…

    •  by: ScottK

      November 30, 2005, 16:17

      Mom and Bob are here in Las Vegas visiting. I am looking forward to finally seeing them tomorrow evening. They have been here since Monday and we have barely…

    • Therapy 101: Don't Dwell on the Past by: ScottK

      November 29, 2005, 21:01

      If you look around the web, when you're really bored to death, and see all the web sites out there that feed human curiosity, voyerisms, and twisted curiosities…

    • blah blah blah... lot said nothing important! by: ScottK

      November 27, 2005, 21:29

      If you blink, you might miss some of the changes taking place here. I fine-tuned some of the flash stuff on here this morning before I left for the gym. I had…

    • ANOTHER... New Look by: ScottK

      November 26, 2005, 19:08

      I worked on the previous design for almost a month. In the course of one day I decided it was not working. I threw together what you can see today at www.BlueAn…

    • Black Friday by: ScottK

      November 25, 2005, 18:23

      As mentioned in last night's entry, the food for Thanksgiving was extremely successful. The pictures cab be found here or by following the gallery link above.…

    • Happy Thanksgiving by: ScottK

      November 21, 2005, 16:50

      This is going to be a busy week. I am sure I am the only one who's going to be this busy... so feel sorry only for me. The funny thing is that we still have no…

    • Maturity? by: ScottK

      November 20, 2005, 15:23

      This week someone says to me: You do not look or act your age. In more ways than not I can look into that and see a compliment. I feel like a kid sometimes,…

    • Pardon our dust... by: ScottK

      November 20, 2005, 13:05

      Notice the configuration change? Well, I am working on updating the site and trying to deal with an issue on this page. How do I get my background image…

    •  by: ScottK

      November 19, 2005, 17:53

      All I am doing with the new web design is adding finishing touches now. All the art is in. Most of the configurations are made. I will have to try and make the…

    •  by: ScottK

      November 18, 2005, 17:20

      I got an e-mail from Allan today about my FAT Rant... he has a weight problem himself and was there with words of encouragment. Isn't that precious. Well, he…

    •  by: ScottK

      November 17, 2005, 22:46

      Here is a little preview of the site coming after Thanksgiving. Upon the release it will have pictures from my Thanksgiving Dinner!Like the ALL NEW ART!?!?!?!…

    •  by: ScottK

      November 17, 2005, 17:24

      I am fat. Okay... so as overweight as I feel I am, as much as I know I have gained and need to loose, it's funny that a lot of people still look at me as an…

    •  by: ScottK

      November 15, 2005, 23:01

      I have been meaning to post this picture... this is Tom in a Holloween costume I got for him and dressed him up one evening. He was MIZZZZZZERABLE and was…

    •  by: ScottK

      November 14, 2005, 20:00

      My 2006 site is still coming along, but I noticed a very concerning flaw in my execution that I am glad I discovered in advance.... it all has to do with…

    •  by: ScottK

      November 13, 2005, 20:08

      Last night when I left work I was in an absolute state of anger. I let some ass get up my nose and then I really got more and more frustrated with the drive…

    •  by: ScottK

      November 12, 2005, 18:36

      The new version of UrielsLantern will be going live in December! It's coming together so naturally that it is amazing. I have some little details to hammer…

    •  by: ScottK

      November 11, 2005, 19:43

      My 2006 web site is coming a long better than I imagined. I got some custom art work in the mail the other day I added this morning and it is awesome. I will…

    •  by: ScottK

      November 7, 2005, 21:14

      Scott 2006 is coming alive! I had gone down a whole road of configuring, setting up and making art for the new 2006 site featuring meeeeeeeeeeeeeee and after…

    •  by: ScottK

      November 7, 2005, 00:37

      This is the cake I made Kenny for his birthday. He had been bugging me about a chocolate cake with cream cheese frosting for 2 years and I finally delivered.…

    •  by: ScottK

      November 6, 2005, 20:24

      In the light of my uncly Ed I am radiating with positive energy. See my previous post? Is anyone seeing my previous posts? I am hoping by displaying a new…

    •  by: ScottK

      November 5, 2005, 19:36

      I'm not feeling very philosophical. Neither do I feel complacent. I have been thinking about friends of mine again, wondering how people are. I think about…

    •  by: ScottK

      November 4, 2005, 11:52

      I did it... I spent more money I should not have spent. I bought a Sirius Receiver which was on-sale for 129.00 then a 50.00 mail in rebate.... I thought I…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 31, 2005, 17:54

      I am so tired. I want to lay down in the middle of a green forest and sleep in a big fluffy bed with a thick comforter and ... nothing or no one else. Away…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 30, 2005, 22:49

      I have started working 0n the new 2006 version of UrielsLantern and expect all you to come and visit frequently!!!!!! This one will be a lot different than my…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 29, 2005, 21:48

      It's almost time for me to go home from work and I want to make this quick entry. Tonight I was talking to the one of the Chef's in the hot kitchen to discover…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 28, 2005, 14:36

      Last night Adolfo and I went to the birthday party for a little girl who turned 3. Well, it was her Las Vegas party because she was visiting her Gram'n'Grampa…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 27, 2005, 15:15

      Did I not tell you this would be an uneventful weekend? Well, I did very little including some of the important things I could have been doing. I am such a…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 24, 2005, 20:15

      Whatta week... odly enough it seems like the whole thing as smoked by. I am looking forward to this weekend for the most part, just a chill-fest until…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 22, 2005, 20:32

      Given last night's post, I was very driven by a conviction that burned inside of me to relate the death of those two guys even though it happened way back in…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 21, 2005, 14:52

      I have been reading other blogs and I think it would only do us good to share these with other people. As screwed up and dull as 75% seem to be, there are some…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 20, 2005, 15:52

      I had a nice weekend, as it were, still working on a lot of life stuff and making plans for the future. I had the chance to chat with a couple of people…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 17, 2005, 19:17

      I feel the new Tsunami coming, it is change. I like change, but I do not like when I get run over by it. Change is good as long as you're open to it. Adolfo is…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 16, 2005, 20:45

      Do you ever obsess over stuff? I sometimes get an idea in my head and virtually nothing will change my mind. If it is a food thing someone once told me "you…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 15, 2005, 15:00

      I went for a nice run this morning and it was good. When I was half-way through it I came upon a site for a fun-run today in front of some old-folks home and…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 14, 2005, 15:44

      Well, I measure my weeks by my workdays. So, today is my Tuesday. In spite of the fact that it is Friday by the calendar, I am very much having a Tuesday. My…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 13, 2005, 16:46

      I have had a couple days to think about my recent entry about freinds and people... there are so many people I left out. There are so many freinds I did not…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 10, 2005, 17:00

      I was just talking to someone at work about the idea of moving out of this city. I talked about Chicago and Providence. Why would I want to move? Other than…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 9, 2005, 20:04

      It has been a busy night, especially for a Sunday, here at the lovely Venetian Hotel and Casino. Usually it is a little more subdued. Anyway, I have not been…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 8, 2005, 14:33

      I just got to work a little while ago and all is quiet. I am currently working in the IT department of the Venetian Hotel and Casino. I used to be a Pastry…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 6, 2005, 16:01

      My celebrity lunch went off quite well. I made a nice meal for the author Terry Goodkind and his wife, along with a famouse movie director and they enjoyed it…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 3, 2005, 16:17

      I was interrupted on yesterday's posting. Not that I had that much more to do???? Anyway, I am off the next couple days, but am finishing up my shift tonight…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 2, 2005, 18:37

      The last week has been a lot of stress once again. No, no that twenty-something angst of the Real World. No, not the 30 something Friends farewell special. But…

    •  by: ScottK

      September 26, 2005, 19:06

      Today is my Friday.... I get to have the next couple of days off work. You know when there are certain things you need to do and you keep putting them off...…

    •  by: ScottK

      September 25, 2005, 19:45

      Last night after work I ended up at a club called Krave here in Las Vegas. It is a high end queer club and this one was featuring cast members from the…

    •  by: ScottK

      September 24, 2005, 16:06

      I di dnot have much time last night to make an entry. I finally felt like I could at the end of my workshift, but ran out of time.I ran again last night and I…

    •  by: ScottK

      September 23, 2005, 21:57

      Went running last night after work and it was tougher than I expected. I run very well on the tredmill in the gym, but outside in real time it is harder. What…

    •  by: ScottK

      September 22, 2005, 20:24

      At work again and thinking about a lot of the stuff tyhat has been happening over the last week. Nothing significant, mind you, but enough that it can get my…

    •  by: ScottK

      September 20, 2005, 23:14

      Long day today... I got some good words from Gary off in Nebraska-way. I kept my ass busy all day and accomplished absolutely nothing. I did see a guy from…

    •  by: ScottK

      September 17, 2005, 19:57

      Very Interesting People:Brit BloggerAnonymous LawyerMusic and Vid-Image Pay special attention to SIGUR RÓS: Viðrar Vel Til Loftárása I want feedback from…

    •  by: ScottK

      September 17, 2005, 15:44

      What a day... it's another day at the Lovely hotel. I am at work and since I have been here (since 3) it has been relatively quiet. There is always someone…

    •  by: ScottK

      September 16, 2005, 17:27

      The affects of SFO are still with me. I feel like I am looking at the worked differenly... but the thing is that I have not really changed. It's like being…

    •  by: ScottK

      September 15, 2005, 16:22

      I am back at work. I am back doing Swing Shift and feel pretty good about things in general. When I came back from SFO I thought I felt different inside a bit.…

    •  by: ScottK

      September 13, 2005, 23:15

      I cannot sleep. I went to bed at 11 and I woke up feeling really wierd about 15 minutes ago. I looked at the clock and I thought it was 2am. So, once I…

    •  by: ScottK

      September 13, 2005, 07:58

      I am in SFO right now having spent the night last night. It is absolutely LOVELY here right now. I can wear a coat. There is a breeze in the city. The morning…

    •  by: ScottK

      September 10, 2005, 23:31

      Night #3 of 5 on Gaveyeard Shift at the Venetian Hotel....I am more tired tonight than any other night. I had a headache earlier today and I think I still feel…

    •  by: ScottK

      September 10, 2005, 00:33

      Well, this is another night at work and yesterday ended quietly and effortlessly. There are some positive aspects to this Graveyard shift business. There are…

    •  by: ScottK

      September 9, 2005, 00:43

      I am at work right now... having just discovered that I can write in my blogs. This week I have a really FUCKED UP schedule because I am working grave-yard…

    •  by: ScottK

      August 21, 2005, 23:21

      I have been working a lot and going to the gym a lot again... but I make money and get fatter. I took some pictures because I am going to do some more work on…

    •  by: ScottK

      August 8, 2005, 20:07

      Another week has shot by and here I sit with a load of stuff on my brain. First of all, I updated a the gallery section of the site with some of the pics from…

    •  by: ScottK

      July 30, 2005, 21:51

      Well, we're back from SFO and back into the mode of life. Adolfo is at work right now. I am going to bed in 5 minutes. We spent WAY WAY too much money.Anyway,…

    •  by: ScottK

      July 21, 2005, 19:41

      This has been an interesting month, as it is ending in some pretty cool ways. I have a lot of goals and in achieving them I am stunned that I am making…

    •  by: ScottK

      July 7, 2005, 09:11

      Today is my Sunday, but I have an extra day off this week which I am very happy about. I chose not to get paid for it, saving my flex-time (vacation time), so…

    •  by: ScottK

      June 29, 2005, 08:39

      I just found out that my web company is going out of business... so all my sites will be vanishing soon. I need to get a new provider... I will keep you…

    •  by: ScottK

      June 28, 2005, 19:12

      It's been a while... again. Our lives have changed with schedules changing. Adolfo and I have much more simular schedules and with that he likes to keep me off…

    •  by: ScottK

      June 8, 2005, 19:46

      So, it's been a quiet week and my brain has still been working over time on where I am, what I want, and how to get to a point that I can only imagine arriving…

    •  by: ScottK

      June 2, 2005, 07:12

      Still thinking a lot about a lot of things... thinking too much. I cannot quite put my finger on what it is I feel I am missing out of life. I feel like I am…

    •  by: ScottK

      May 28, 2005, 17:11

      I do not suppose I write much when thengs are good and stuff... that means I need a place and a voice to vent when I am not feeling very secure or comfortable.…

    •  by: ScottK

      May 19, 2005, 18:50

      Yesterday, I started thinking again. I meditate some times and I get a little vision of the present from outside of myself looking in. I have a hard time…

    •  by: ScottK

      May 6, 2005, 21:21

      Yes, I saw Hitchhikers and loved it... but I love English humor anyway. I swear... I was the only person laughing in some of the scenes shown. None of the…

    •  by: ScottK

      April 30, 2005, 20:31

      It sounds like Adolfo has been enjoying his new job. It sounds like the move to Wynn was a good idea so far. I am happy about all of that... so it's great that…

    •  by: ScottK

      April 22, 2005, 21:00

      This has been a month of many changes. I have had to make a lot of changes inside my way of thinking as well as my outlook. As you may have read previously, I…

    •  by: ScottK

      April 15, 2005, 18:48

      Not a lot has been happening, but at the same time that has not been so important. I built a desk in the office this week. It looks nice although it is not so…

    •  by: ScottK

      April 13, 2005, 09:00

      I have not added my 2 cents lately. Adolfo and I have been very busy with life right now and it has kept me away from the computer for the most part.Last week…

    •  by: ScottK

      April 5, 2005, 20:19

      I have been really busy the last few days and have had no time to get somethings finished... including my uncy ed's web site. We got back from L.A. Saturday…

    •  by: ScottK

      March 31, 2005, 10:29

      So, today I sent out an e-mail announcing the changes in my site. My cousin says it is very "deep". 'Deep' in quotes seems to mask some real feeling about what…

    •  by: ScottK

      March 28, 2005, 21:57

      I am so tired at work. Today I was in a mood almost the whole day. A couple of the women have commented that I am "mean". Hormonal ... #@!% ....It really…

    •  by: ScottK

      March 26, 2005, 21:59

      Has anyone noticed that I updated this bloody site? Is anyone visiting? Ugh!I did our taxes tonight and my eyes are strained. I want to pass out on the…

    •  by: ScottK

      March 25, 2005, 21:26

      The last couple days have been a little wierd. Adolfo and I had some time together and as usual we make the most of it when we do.BUT, yesterday our plan was…

    •  by: ScottK

      March 17, 2005, 11:25

      I halfway expected notes from people this morning wondering about my entry last night... nothing! AND I am glad, because if you know me and read it you might…

    •  by: ScottK

      March 16, 2005, 23:30

      So, I am dealing with yet another epiphany today. Between issues with Seattle. Between issues moving me here to LV. Between a woman from 25 years + contacting…

    •  by: ScottK

      March 15, 2005, 23:35

      Since I have moved into Vegas I have reconnected with some interesting people from my past. 1. My best freind from High School, Terry, who can be seen in my…

    •  by: ScottK

      March 12, 2005, 23:24

      I am thinking aboutmy last entry. It sounded a little bitchy moany. Though I care a little if someone's nose got out of joint for it, I was just venting.I have…

    •  by: ScottK

      March 12, 2005, 20:51

      All is well in hoo-ville. Sometimes I feel like I am in Petticoat Junction with the army of hillbilies that live here in Las Vegas. So many people assume what…

    •  by: ScottK

      March 7, 2005, 22:33

      Ugh... sick day was used well, but I found out today my schedule was changed this week and I am off tomorrow. Ugh... well, I will try and use the time…

    •  by: ScottK

      March 6, 2005, 13:36

      I took a sick day today and started working on a couple projects. One is my uncle's web site. www.edwardeggman.com .... it's just a static site and I will be…

    •  by: ScottK

      March 5, 2005, 22:29

      All is well in Sin City. I got a new cell phone today, which I have been lamenting over for the last few months. I am excited, though I did not get an…

    •  by: ScottK

      February 28, 2005, 20:48

      Well, I am annoyed when people ask me certain questions. I know some people mean well and they do not mean to be annoying.Why move to Seattle?Do you have a job…

    •  by: ScottK

      February 27, 2005, 21:05

      So, I am at the gym today and there is this guy... just kidding. I am constantly running out of time and getting nothing out of it. I believe I have also…

    •  by: ScottK

      February 22, 2005, 20:40

      So, I am at the gym today and there is this guy that I think will pretty much make a move on anyone or anything. He is a latino guy, about mid-forties or so,…

    •  by: ScottK

      February 7, 2005, 21:15

      I decided to complete school this week... for now. I took a lot of classes that can take me up to a certain level of MicrSoft certs, but in the end I do not…

    •  by: ScottK

      February 3, 2005, 11:35

      Been busy here as usual... we had guests visiting from L.A. and NYC over the last two weeks who hung out even though we were barely home. Kaidy was here and…

    •  by: ScottK

      January 22, 2005, 22:35

      So, this has been a goofy week. Kaidy came in from L.A. and stayed with us a few days. He is a sweetheart!!!! He has never met Adolfo before and they got on…

    •  by: ScottK

      January 17, 2005, 23:31

      I am up too late again tonight working on one of my "projects". I am frustrated because I am discovering a lack of information... ugh. BUT... since tomorrow is…

    •  by: ScottK

      January 16, 2005, 19:53

      I got an e-mail from terry today and it was nice. He is always a character. He was my best friend back in high school One story from our past continuously…

    •  by: ScottK

      January 11, 2005, 23:22

      Today was a rough day... not bad. Just a little rough. I could feel some seriously bad energy floating around me all day. It was as if I was attracting…

    •  by: ScottK

      January 9, 2005, 18:56

      I have been working odd hours at work this week because of all the conventions happening. I am exhausted! I have to be there at 5am and I worked OT yesterday…

    •  by: ScottK

      January 5, 2005, 01:09

      I forgot to mention that I updated a couple sections of the site last night. nothing major.. but I am trying to think of some new things I can add. Any…

    •  by: ScottK

      January 4, 2005, 23:46

      Got a nice e-mail from Allan today. Got an annoying e-mail from Keith, too. He was responding to my e-mail to him and basically made excuses for it all.…

    •  by: ScottK

      January 3, 2005, 23:52

      I have been really upset with pal Keith for reasons I am not going to get into. I wrote him an e-mail explaining why. It started on Christmas Eve and has not…

    •  by: ScottK

      December 30, 2004, 23:10

      I am getting ready for bed. I did not sleep so well last night, so I am looking forward to it. I have these wierd dreams from time to time about work-related…

    •  by: ScottK

      December 28, 2004, 23:51

      uhm... tomorrow is my birthday and I could get through it not really worrying about it at all. I am turing 40. 4 (four) 0 (zero)... I am officially gay-dead. I…

    •  by: ScottK

      December 22, 2004, 01:13

      Earlier today I considered what I would write in my diary tonight, because I have been really struggling with the path of life I am on... again. I am definitely…

    •  by: ScottK

      December 15, 2004, 22:07

      I have to go back to work tomorrow after my weekend. Today is my Sunday, so it is the end of my weekend obviously. This was a tough one! It's also a week from…

    •  by: ScottK

      December 11, 2004, 21:08

      I updated my wish list ... I feel very fat today... My weight losing endeavers have fallen fairly flat. I am working out a lot, but I guess my consuming is…

    •  by: ScottK

      December 9, 2004, 09:23

      Fallah-lah-lah-lahhhhh Humbug. Well, it is getting closer to Christmas. I am not sure when hannakah begins... but I am still uninspired. The house here looks…

    •  by: ScottK

      November 28, 2004, 22:05

      Adolfo just told me he read my diary out of curiousity... he was actually looking for my holiday list on the OTHER link and whammo, bammo... read these pages…

    •  by: ScottK

      November 25, 2004, 21:52

      Today was good. I started making dinner last night while Adolfo was at work. This Thanksgiving was one of the better ones at that. In spite of the fact that…

    •  by: ScottK

      November 19, 2004, 23:10

      I have been really stressing out a lot lately. I find myself brimming with anger at the slightest slightest trespass from other people around me. Some people…

    •  by: ScottK

      November 11, 2004, 22:31

      Well, since the last mail I heard from about 10% of the pipples I sent mail to... buttheads! Where is my Uncy Ed? Dave/Chris? Mark/Sebby? Nancy? Ugh! Where did…

    •  by: ScottK

      November 9, 2004, 10:43

      I have not heard from anyone since I posted the pics from Universal Studios. This week is a little nutty because Ih ave a final exam to complete and my A+…

    •  by: ScottK

      November 6, 2004, 19:09

      Last night I worked very late and want to get to bed early. I was working for the Venetian and Chef Long, but we went to the Four Seasons to plate a Venetian…

    •  by: ScottK

      November 4, 2004, 20:44

      What can I say? It's been a couple days since my last entry. In that time, Bush becamse President fro the 2nd time and I went on a quickie vcation with…

    •  by: ScottK

      November 1, 2004, 13:28

      Tomorrow we are getting on a plane for L.A. and escaping town for a little while. I am glad to get away, but we are at each other's throats a little. We are…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 30, 2004, 17:11

      I wish I had something exciting to announce or moan about... but I don't. A is on vacation for the past couple days and I am off starting tomorrow for a few…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 20, 2004, 12:31

      Wow, we are getting ready for another vacation this month and I bought tickets to Los Angeles last night. It will be a one-day affair and we will train into…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 16, 2004, 20:05

      I have managed to get this bloody diary back into operation. The solution required a little flexibility, but alas you can see and hear me now. Just as this…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 13, 2004, 09:16

      I am trying to get this working again

    •  by: ScottK

      September 15, 2004, 15:59

      Test

    •  by: ScottK

      September 15, 2004, 15:28

      Today I found out a freind of mine from Boston died. His name was Estuardo... he was a good man. He had a huge heart and was one of the best people I have ever…

    •  by: ScottK

      September 12, 2004, 20:59

      I have been keeping very busy. School working, some assemplabce of a social life. Last night I want to a GodSmack concert at the House of Blues! Oh, I was pure…

    •  by: ScottK

      September 8, 2004, 17:45

      Some nasty queen wrote a comment from the last entry... alas HE only gave me gas. Anyway, my buddy Keith had come over that night and we had dinner together.…

    •  by: ScottK

      September 3, 2004, 21:07

      I had 1/2 a bottle of pinot noir an hour and a half ago and I feel ... fickin buzzed

    •  by: ScottK

      September 2, 2004, 18:54

      I am writing while at school right now. I am fighting to keep awake during a lecture I should be listening to. I am so sleepy and want to go to bed... but I…

    •  by: ScottK

      August 29, 2004, 21:00

      School has kept me a little on the busy side. On top of all that, I am trying to do a few things and then forget the other things I want to do. I keep studying…

    •  by: ScottK

      August 21, 2004, 18:58

      Saturday night... I am such a dork. I had some plans, but they went up in smoke. Plan A: go running, try to get to bed early (after Big Brother). Plan B:…

    •  by: ScottK

      August 19, 2004, 15:59

      Tom went back to the doctor today and is cming along very very very well. I am thrilled. His eyes look almost normal. We go back in a month for another…

    •  by: ScottK

      August 15, 2004, 19:44

      IF YOU FOLLOW THE LINKS HERE USE THE BACK AND FORWARD BUTTONS ON YOUR BROWSER TO GET BACK TO THIS PAGE... OR USE THE BUTTONS UP TOP. Today I began examing my…

    •  by: ScottK

      August 14, 2004, 21:04

      Good news from what I can see... Tom is doing better. His eyes seem almost unnaturally large all of a sudden, maybe because he was squinting so often for a…

    •  by: ScottK

      August 12, 2004, 18:37

      Today was the day I did not want. Well, today was the day that went by too fast, because my whole day was bizzy. This is me and Tom; my puppy. Over the past…

    •  by: ScottK

      August 11, 2004, 18:23

      I have not heard anything about my posting earlier today from anyone? Well, I went to CEI and decided to go there for some school for the next 9 months before…

    •  by: ScottK

      August 11, 2004, 10:18

      Keith, if you're reading this, then you should know we missed out on applying for Amazing Race 7. Last night I saw the announcement for the applications and I…

    •  by: ScottK

      August 8, 2004, 21:39

      MSN Astrological Forcast: "Your normal pace, slow and steady, usually wins the race, dear Capricorn, but today you might need to take some short cuts. Feel…

    •  by: ScottK

      August 7, 2004, 22:55

      I should be in bed.... instead I have drama here. This is the e-mail I sent to my apartment manager: Tonight I called security about a problem with Donald's…

    •  by: ScottK

      August 5, 2004, 21:23

      Well, the new goals are still coming together. I have been acting each day in a manor to achieve those goals, so I cannot say I have been sitting back on my…

    •  by: ScottK

      August 4, 2004, 19:12

      Goals are still forming.. foaming... taking shape... gelling... congealing....

    •  by: ScottK

      August 3, 2004, 19:45

      Project GOALS is underway. My brain is working, I have already started taking some action. I am learning to focus and take some shape on what I need to do,…

    •  by: ScottK

      August 1, 2004, 21:48

      At this point I am thinking wayyyyyy too much. I just took Tom for a walk and I thought about things Brian was telling me last night. He told me how he took…

    •  by: ScottK

      August 1, 2004, 21:14

      Here I am adding a second post... this is after I worked on my immediate goals. SHIT... this is harder to do than I thought. What do you think? Page Link

    •  by: ScottK

      August 1, 2004, 19:30

      Brian's words were in my head today. What he said made a lot of sense. He said that I should think more of the NOW instead of ...the opposite of that. He is…

    •  by: ScottK

      July 31, 2004, 20:13

      So, if anyone is reading this AT ALL. I added a new page to the site last night featuring my goals. It's in the about section... this is a work in progress and…

    •  by: ScottK

      July 30, 2004, 19:49

      Goals, goals, goals... no excuses. No blaming anyone else. No more limits. No more worrying about what other peole think. I need to be ME! So what about…

    •  by: ScottK

      July 25, 2004, 21:21

      Imagine standing in the eye of a hurricane. All around you is the storm and you can see things in that wind that is swirling around you: Adolfo and my…

    •  by: ScottK

      July 21, 2004, 20:03

      Ever since we got back, for the most part, Adolfo has been very sweet. He has his moody moment, he will always be a negative bith, but he is learning to curb…

    •  by: ScottK

      July 18, 2004, 20:33

      good crap... i ahve managed to make an entry every day for the last week. i must be bored, not have enough to do, or just need to get a lot of crap off my…

    •  by: ScottK

      July 17, 2004, 20:21

      I bought this stuff called "Advil" last night and I have to tell you I am thrilled. I feel SOOOO good today. My back is not bothering me at all! Good news,…

    •  by: ScottK

      July 16, 2004, 20:51

      In the last three days my back has been KILLING ME! I either pulled a muscle in the center of my back or have an ice-pick back there that is invisible to the…

    •  by: ScottK

      July 15, 2004, 17:54

      My first day back to work was... just another day. It was somewhat uneventful and boring as usual. I am starting to see that I will not achieve anything as…

    •  by: ScottK

      July 14, 2004, 19:03

      We are now home from vacation and the pictures are posted in the gallery. It was a good time away... it was good being together. It was not without it's…

    •  by: ScottK

      July 5, 2004, 19:46

      I just molested Adolfo in the shower. He was being a bitch for a while because he was mad at me for something stupid... then while he was showering, I climbed…

    •  by: ScottK

      July 2, 2004, 18:42

      They're falling like flies. Tony Randall, Ron Reagan, Ray Charles.... now Marlon Brando???? Who is next? If it always happens in 3's then there is one…

    •  by: ScottK

      June 28, 2004, 16:33

      Monday is the one day off I get with Adolfo. We often spend at least half of the day running errands, shopping or whatever else needs to be done. This also…

    •  by: ScottK

      June 27, 2004, 21:59

      Nothing happening veery much. I am anticipating the vacation coming up in just over a week. We will be leaving Tom behind and are trying to get several…

    •  by: ScottK

      June 23, 2004, 22:03

      Okay, I have not written here in a while. It was most clear when I called and talked to the lovely Kathy today in Visalia. She said her a home-boy Terry read…

    •  by: ScottK

      June 10, 2004, 19:22

      Maybe I was a little rough on Ron Reagan... but he's dead and finally stopped disrupting my television viewing. Now, Ray Charles is dead and I feel sad he's…

    •  by: ScottK

      June 6, 2004, 20:58

      I remember when Ronnie Reagan was in office... I remember a man who was a clever clown with a red nose, rosie cheeks, and a dull whited smile. He always have…

    •  by: ScottK

      June 5, 2004, 19:39

      I am in upheaval lately.... again. I was asked out on a date by an 18 year old cutie and I think he was also feeling quite giddy. Well, that made me feel…

    •  by: ScottK

      June 1, 2004, 22:08

      I have a three day weekend starting Monday, boy am I thrilled! It's been a good one at that... and Adolfo and I have been very happy through it. I guess so…

    •  by: ScottK

      May 30, 2004, 18:16

      I have been watching the WB Superstar now that all of my reality shows and other qulaity shows are off the air OR are in repeats. Oh my GOD I am glad I do not…

    •  by: ScottK

      May 26, 2004, 22:06

      We have been working on the apartment. Some of the things we have done is buy a new couch, painted one of the walls a light green, put Adolfo's picture on the…

    •  by: ScottK

      May 21, 2004, 21:58

      Gary wrote: "Quote... Oh, as for the fallen logs in the road, chain saws! It struck me reading that paragraph that your mindset has a bit more pessimistic…

    •  by: ScottK

      May 20, 2004, 21:37

      Epiphany... I think too much about myself and I think too much about my own chaos. Correct me if I am wrong, Gary, but I sound like a big dramatic idiot on…

    •  by: ScottK

      May 16, 2004, 22:52

      Today I logged into Blogger and it is all different. I am thrown by it, but I can live with it. Last night Adolfo and I threw a party for our new apartment.…

    •  by: ScottK

      May 3, 2004, 00:04

      Today (Sunday) was my Friday from work. This week was tough as I feel my energy changing. As mentioned previously, I am currently doing something for work that…

    •  by: ScottK

      April 29, 2004, 22:24

      Today was another day that I found very difficult. My mind was outside of myself through the first half of it, though I struggled to stay focused at work. I…

    •  by: ScottK

      April 28, 2004, 20:51

      OMG! Moved but not unpacked....completely anyway! This apartment is considerable more smaller than our last. Still two bedroom, still two bath... but MAYBE 25%…

    •  by: ScottK

      April 23, 2004, 20:12

      ugh! I have not been updating this. Instead I grouse at Allan, Keith, or Emily. (Who's Emily??? See me on Frienster and her, too). Anyway, I woke up this…

    •  by: ScottK

      April 17, 2004, 20:06

      Well, this has been a bizzy month. Tonight I am just trying to pay some bills and catch up on a few things. Gary! Guess what I have been doing...? I got…

    •  by: ScottK

      April 9, 2004, 19:24

      I've been a little bizzy this week with stuff... my best bud from ghigh school came to visit this week from California. He lives in Visalia now and is a…

    •  by: ScottK

      April 3, 2004, 22:01

      A girl at work asked me a question today: "Do you have any regrets?" I answered "yes" immediately... it was a simple question to me. I have fell into several…

    •  by: ScottK

      April 2, 2004, 22:33

      Looks like I might stay with the Venetian for a little while. I was thinking I might not stay past my probation period, but I decided to stay still for a…

    •  by: ScottK

      March 31, 2004, 11:29

      In one week Terry will be here from California to celebrate his birthday!!!!! Yipee!!! We plan on going sky diving and plummet to our mutual deaths while loved…

    •  by: ScottK

      March 25, 2004, 18:31

      Allan, Terry, or Gary never answered my posting from yesterday... what happen guys? Did you get bored waiting for me to make an update on this thing? Anyway,…

    •  by: ScottK

      March 24, 2004, 10:59

      I graduated from school last week and I have to say that I am feeling a little relieved. Now I am also looking at a bachelor program that starts on 3/29... but…

    •  by: ScottK

      March 15, 2004, 23:42

      No... I am still alive. so, I have been busy .... so much so that I have had no time for myself AT ALL! School is coming to a conclusion this quarter and…

    •  by: ScottK

      February 7, 2004, 21:32

      Think I fell off the earth again??? Well, I am over committed and miserable right now again. I am working full time at the Venetian... part time at Bullshrimp…

    •  by: ScottK

      January 15, 2004, 11:16

      Adolfo and I have been fighting a lot lately and largely I feel he has been more an antagonist and I have been a little sensative. I read my horoscope on…

    •  by: ScottK

      January 5, 2004, 12:25

      Time seems to be moving faster than last year ... it is as if I was celebrating Christmas yesterday. New Year's went by in a flash as well. My last entry has…

    •  by: ScottK

      December 29, 2003, 22:50

      Today is my Birthday. This has to be one of the worst birthdays I can recall. This birthday generally sucked from the start. I picked Adolfo up last night…

    •  by: ScottK

      December 23, 2003, 12:19

      My computer is completely dead since Saturday and I am trying to get it working again. Should be back bt Friday.. depending on a lot of things. Ergh!!! I am at…

    •  by: ScottK

      December 9, 2003, 11:13

      Been busy working over the last week. I go to school in the morning and then off to the Venetian in the evening. Then once in a while I get a consulting gig. I…

    •  by: ScottK

      December 1, 2003, 20:13

      Christmas List

    •  by: ScottK

      December 1, 2003, 20:04

      As you can see, I have been making some changes to the site. This is supposed to be my swansong as it were, but I have said that before. I think this will be…

    •  by: ScottK

      November 18, 2003, 20:22

      I updated my Christmas List again. I am also working on keeping my head above water for the next few weeks. The holidays are going to be peachy again. Always…

    •  by: ScottK

      November 13, 2003, 15:16

      I started working on my Christmas Wish list... money is always good. This is my list.... I put it on another Blogger Page...

    •  by: ScottK

      November 12, 2003, 22:08

      Allan says I am a big bitch because I have not made any updates here lately. I've just been busy. I am always busy, but I get so caught up in my own bullshit…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 30, 2003, 18:54

      I should clarify a statement I made in the last entry... I do love my family, but my frustration goes to my dad sometimes and the way he and I relate to each…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 30, 2003, 07:17

      I am about to leave for school and have been thinking about my previous 2 diary entries. When it comes to money I get more stressed than anything else. By…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 28, 2003, 06:46

      Money is a huge issue right now. I feel so pressed. Some may have noticed my last diary entry wherein I highlighted my freakout lastnight. I am loosing sleep…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 27, 2003, 21:26

      I am hemeraging money right now... my balls are swollen frm being kicked over and over again. Ergh!!! I am frustrated. Anyway... other than that life sucks…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 20, 2003, 06:19

      I was determined to get out of town this weekend. I had even written on our calendar next to the front door: "Out of Town". So, Adolfo made all this noise…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 8, 2003, 11:13

      I went to a food show at the raceway this morning and it was kinda boring. It was for U.S. Food Service and there were a tone of food samples sitting around.…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 6, 2003, 14:33

      I am tired, stressed, and other stuff. I just got home from school - then the gym - but could use a nap. No real mney schedueld to come in and it is stressing…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 5, 2003, 14:27

      Sometimes I feel very lost in this world. Sometimes I feel like I wish I was not here. Sometimes I feel like I am so alone and in spite of Adoldo being around…

    •  by: ScottK

      September 30, 2003, 06:26

      Ergh... I am dreaming a lot lately again. It is so wierd. Last nights first dream was me in a food competition. I find I am dreaming a lot about cooking and…

    •  by: ScottK

      September 19, 2003, 08:03

      In my previous update I forgot to mention that we had a lot of visist from family in that time. Not on Adolfo's family... as I think I mentioned... but also my…

    •  by: ScottK

      September 12, 2003, 10:01

      Oh it has been a while since I wrote. I have been busy and lazy at the same time. So here is a quick review: Adolfo and I went through a big fight in the…

    •  by: ScottK

      August 7, 2003, 20:19

      Money emergency just made it... I ended up borrowing some money from someone I knew aho was kind enough to trust me. Otherwise we are making it okay. I also…

    •  by: ScottK

      August 5, 2003, 04:46

      Things are really tense right now. Stressing over money. Rent is hanging in the balance and it feels like it is driving a wedge between Adolfo and I. On the…

    •  by: ScottK

      August 2, 2003, 10:46

      Life is very busy... so much so that I am not keeping up with everything very well. It does not help when (on occasion) I waste time. School is going well, but…

    •  by: ScottK

      July 20, 2003, 09:00

      Yesterday was also very busy and my stress level is breaking heart-attack range right now. Neither of us make enough money to support our lives right now. Once…

    •  by: ScottK

      July 18, 2003, 08:20

      I had a busy day yesterday and I was gone from 8 in the morning to 10:30 at night. School all morning, then off to the gym, and completed my day at Sur La…

    •  by: ScottK

      July 17, 2003, 06:49

      I logged onto chat today and almost everyone is gone? Where is everyone? No Allan? No Brian? No Chippy? No Ian? Adolfo had a mood swing last night. He left…

    •  by: ScottK

      July 16, 2003, 18:44

      Day#3 at school. Week is going well. Nothing to bitch about. It's been a busy week and I am enjoying being busy. Sucks that I am not at a 100%. I feel bloated.…

    •  by: ScottK

      July 14, 2003, 18:42

      Today was the first day abck to school. It went okay. I have a new teached whom I have not warmed up to yet. He seems okay and he seems like a competant feller…

    •  by: ScottK

      July 13, 2003, 11:43

      I had a wonderful weekend with Adolfo so far. Friday night we went to go see LXG and just as the movie started we got into a fight and then when we got home we…

    •  by: ScottK

      July 11, 2003, 06:50

      Oh my hell... it's Friday and 114 degrees predicted outside. 90 degrees at 4 am this morning and it is going to be the same through next week at least. I am…

    •  by: ScottK

      July 10, 2003, 07:13

      I guess I have a few things I am going to mention: 1. I had another one of those nights, last night, wherein I dream about a lot of little things and lot of…

    •  by: ScottK

      July 9, 2003, 07:32

      No dream updates, no anger at Adolfo, nothing special today to report. Who knows how long I can keep this doary updated properly with school starting on…

    •  by: ScottK

      July 8, 2003, 08:14

      I do not remember my dreams last night.... but this was another morning where it was hard to get my ass out of bed. Kieth called me last night, Kieth is a pal…

    •  by: ScottK

      July 7, 2003, 05:59

      I had this dream this morning and it bothered me... this is for real. I was in France and I was sitting in the back seat of a small car with another guy (I…

    •  by: ScottK

      July 6, 2003, 10:47

      Ergh... we made up last night. But something I realized... that when I am mad at him I tend to voice it a lot here on this diary. I do not talk so much about…

    •  by: ScottK

      July 4, 2003, 07:31

      Sybil is back... she landed after worklast night and the many faced of eve changed about 6 times in 5 minutes. She was in a mood, then I got into a mood, then…

    •  by: ScottK

      July 2, 2003, 16:09

      Is anybody reading this? Is anybody send me e-Mail? Someone let me know the love is still out there for me, please. Send me e-mail! I barely get anything from…

    •  by: ScottK

      July 1, 2003, 06:36

      I feel like there is something missing on my entries. Blogger.Com has migrated to another server and and I feel like something is missing. Maybe this will fix…

    •  by: ScottK

      June 22, 2003, 11:13

      Well... I was a little rough in my last entry. I guess I am lucky Adolfo does not really read my diary unless he is bored out of his mind. Chippy in NY read my…

    •  by: ScottK

      June 21, 2003, 07:37

      Boy was I wrong... my BF is Sybil. I am living with, fucking, and cooking food for Sybil. The Big Chair is missing... yet... Sybil lives in Las Vegas. A few…

    •  by: ScottK

      June 20, 2003, 20:10

      Ergh... I read back to catch up on the previous entry. My demon-BF is back to normal now. He metamophed back into human form the next night... BUT he never…

    •  by: ScottK

      June 13, 2003, 06:28

      June is still here... I just read the last entry opening line complaining how fast the month was going by... ergh! Well, the first week of finals is over and…

    •  by: ScottK

      June 7, 2003, 10:44

      It's alrady so dmn far into June... where the hell is time going to? Can anyone explain this to me. I feel like I fell into a hole and the world is passing by…

    •  by: ScottK

      May 30, 2003, 07:09

      Ooops... when I uploaded my site on the new server I uploaded an old diary page. Gary reminded me otherwise I would have forgotten intirely. Now if I can get…

    •  by: ScottK

      May 21, 2003, 13:50

      Uriels Lantern will be going away for a little while soon because I am switching servers. I have been dragging my feet over the process for that and other web…

    •  by: ScottK

      May 10, 2003, 10:13

      I have been feeling very stressed again lately. I wish I could relax. Adolfo and I got into a discussion about POT last night and it has been a very very long…

    •  by: ScottK

      May 4, 2003, 22:35

      I am really trying to update this much better. I have been very busy juggling life, school, Adolfo, and other things that I drop the smaller balls. No... this…

    •  by: ScottK

      April 25, 2003, 07:04

      New issues. Adolfo and I had words one evening at a Thai Restaurant we eat at regularly. It started over something so minor that it is unbelievable. It was…

    •  by: ScottK

      April 20, 2003, 22:04

      Look.. more than 10 days since my last update. Well, this has been a week for sure. It is interesting how the cosmos makes things happen. Anyone who doubts…

    •  by: ScottK

      April 8, 2003, 21:28

      The angels special last night was on the History Channel. It was interesting... Cher is on tonight with her farewell performance. She is good. I bet my ex…

    •  by: ScottK

      April 7, 2003, 20:34

      I am neglecting my diary again. What a poop I am. This is my one year anniversary with Adolfo. All last week we fought about something new and old every day. I…

    •  by: ScottK

      March 26, 2003, 13:54

      On Monday night, Adolfo and I spent a nice evening together. I was so upset by him from words we had on Saturday, that it took me THAT long to cool down. Oh, I…

    •  by: ScottK

      March 24, 2003, 06:50

      In case anyone was wondering.... I am a complete mental defect! I am deluded. I am borderline insane. I live in a fantasy world so bent and twisted that I…

    •  by: ScottK

      March 21, 2003, 10:49

      My web site is on a new server now. I moved it off my old provider that I was using when AHE existed and am completely using my hotmail account instead of most…

    •  by: ScottK

      March 15, 2003, 11:30

      Good morning.... another week... another weekend. Yesterday was my Monday for my new job at the Grand Lux Cafe where I work as a Line Cook. I am still in…

    •  by: ScottK

      March 12, 2003, 17:21

      Sometimes I take a while towrite something here. This time I am allowed some latitude. I have been working a lot and and going to school which has left little…

    •  by: ScottK

      March 4, 2003, 22:39

      Life is getting so busy. As insane as it is, I am troubled that I will lose myself and lose track of things I valued in the past. I worry about Tom getting…

    •  by: ScottK

      March 1, 2003, 12:28

      Fucking March is here already. I swear February went by way too fast! I feel a little dizzy from it all going by so fast, ya know. I haope everyone saw the…

    •  by: ScottK

      February 24, 2003, 22:02

      Been really businy as usual. School is going well. Dad helped me get a loan to get me through most of school and I am thrilled. He called me tonight to check…

    •  by: ScottK

      February 17, 2003, 09:35

      Happy Monday! I imagine that most people are home today... that I know anyway. With the holiday today many did not go to work and that snow storm on the east…

    •  by: ScottK

      February 13, 2003, 09:55

      Valentines Day is tomorrow and I am waiting til the last minute as ussual to get something planned. And... as usual I am stressing a bit over it. You see, I…

    •  by: ScottK

      February 10, 2003, 13:42

      Someone wrote me and said that it looked like Adolfo and I have a LOT OF problems. So much so that (based on this diary) that we would probably break up soon?…

    •  by: ScottK

      February 5, 2003, 19:25

      Adolfo and I have been fighting again. This started on Tuesday night which grew from a misunderstanding and exploded all over the wall last night when he ended…

    •  by: ScottK

      February 3, 2003, 20:17

      February has been okay. I am a little stressed as we are a little short on the rent this month, but both get paid this week... so hopefull the check I gave…

    •  by: ScottK

      January 31, 2003, 07:00

      Adolfo was supposed to be leaving early this morning ... even before I woke up ... but he stayed here and made breakfast this morning. It was terrible, but…

    •  by: ScottK

      January 30, 2003, 09:14

      On Thursdays I get to sleep in late and catch up from Monday thru Wednesday. I am glad I have this day to do that, ya know. I got home late last night and…

    •  by: ScottK

      January 28, 2003, 22:45

      All is well... Adolfo and I have been doing well with the exception of last Sunday. My last diary entry was ACTUALLY written on Saturday night after midnight,…

    •  by: ScottK

      January 26, 2003, 00:40

      More days pass... at least I am getting some sentries in. I am trying to use this diary as a means of setting things inside myself to the outside of myself.…

    •  by: ScottK

      January 19, 2003, 11:07

      We made up yesterday afternoon... but I got mad at him again this morning and it only served to cause more tension between us. We will be fine eventually.…

    •  by: ScottK

      January 18, 2003, 12:36

      Not much has been happening since I posted last. Been taking care of some business with my company and am trying to get the engine moving again there. Adolfo…

    •  by: ScottK

      January 11, 2003, 22:48

      Nobody wrote me about the changes?????? Grrrr... anyway... Adolfo took me to Cheesecake Factory for dinner tonight. Yum....

    •  by: ScottK

      January 10, 2003, 10:20

      I made some cosmetic changes on the site today. I think they look great... but they are strictly cosmetic. I am just trying to keep it updated and clean…

    •  by: ScottK

      January 9, 2003, 10:54

      Another week has gone by and all is relatively well. I am starting to hate this job I have at Sur La Table... mostly for one reason. There is a guy there who…

    •  by: ScottK

      January 3, 2003, 21:56

      I am doing laundary tonight. Adolfo has the evening off and is in the bedroom watching television. He has been running hot and cold all evening long. Argh....…

    •  by: ScottK

      January 1, 2003, 17:30

      E-Gads! Has it really been a month since I submitted a diary entry? Well, this has beena bizzy month. I will have new pics posted as son as they are available.…

    •  by: ScottK

      December 5, 2002, 10:21

      No, I did not fall off the planet. I moved in an apartment with Adolfo in the last 2 weeks and the new situation has been rocky most of the time. Adolfo is…

    •  by: ScottK

      November 14, 2002, 22:06

      It's been a few days since I wrote here at all. So here are a few updates: I am still in school and had midterms over the last 2 weeks. I got a score of 86 on…

    •  by: ScottK

      November 11, 2002, 23:02

      Another long and boring day. I worked out and I worked at Sur La Table. I know... very boring. So I worked on one of my homework assignments for my Political…

    •  by: ScottK

      November 10, 2002, 00:36

      I do not seem to be able to get the sutomizations on this diary to follow my design specs! Very seriously frustrating... This next Saturday we are moving to…

    •  by: ScottK

      November 5, 2002, 06:50

      Another long day ahead of me. I am at school from 7:3 to 12:3 and then got to be at work from 2p to 10p ... ergh! Tom's gunna be an unhappy puppy with all this…

    •  by: ScottK

      November 4, 2002, 06:16

      All day at school today.... tomorrow is worse. I have school then a full 8 at Sur La Table. Ergh! Got to get ready for moving, too. Scott ... trying to get…

    •  by: ScottK

      November 3, 2002, 10:44

      Adolfo is still in bed. I am up having coffee. A little stressed this morning. Adolfo and I have been knawing at each other since yesterday... nothing major. I…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 30, 2002, 22:05

      I spent the last 14 hours at school completing a big ta-doo over the school's grand opening. I am tired. Pooped. And I wish I was cuming home to Adolfo tonight…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 28, 2002, 22:57

      Since my last entry I had a cold, struggled with school payments, and almost finished my business plan - again. Jeffy Jeff is finished for the most part... I…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 23, 2002, 16:57

      Happy Wednesday... which means I just finished a few days of school. I read my last diary entry and quivered over some of the typos in it. Jinkies! I even used…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 22, 2002, 22:09

      I just took Adolfo home following a dinner at the MGM with our favorite waitress anmed Paula. She works in the MGM Buffett (except Wednesday and Thursday) as a…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 19, 2002, 22:08

      I got a few nice comments back about the ring. So far so good as it goes. I am glad I have Adolfo in my life and I hope he feels the same in return. I am sure…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 14, 2002, 20:22

      Okay, there it is... this is the ring I got for Adolfo and gave it to him on Saturday. I have been sitting on it for a little while and finally decided to…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 8, 2002, 21:42

      Almost time for bed. I am so sleepy. Nothing new to report except that I got an e-mail from my traveling companion who was very sweet and understanding about a…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 7, 2002, 16:21

      I'm home. Adolfo had a lovely dinner waiting for me when I got in and we ate... went to bad... and then... he he he! RIGHT ON BABY! The trip home was…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 6, 2002, 04:47

      As I write this it is Sunday 8:40 pm in Taiwan! I am very tired because in reality it is something like evening in California right now. I finished my book by…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 4, 2002, 18:22

      Almost middle day on Day3 here in Bali. There was another little earthquake last night, but it was hardly noiceable. I slept well though. The room I have is…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 3, 2002, 12:30

      It is 4:30 am in Bali, Indonesia right now and I am hre checking e-mail. I was so tired I fell asleep last night (local time) at 8pm. Sad, huh??? At 3am this…

    •  by: ScottK

      October 2, 2002, 14:00

      Since my last entry I found out that I was a day off on my whole trip. As I write this I am sitting in a Taiwan airport waiting for my next flight on to Bali.…

    •  by: ScottK

      September 30, 2002, 22:29

      Finals were over on the 19th and I am only just writing out here in the mighty journal. Since then, I have been doing a lot while enjoying my time out of…

    •  by: ScottK

      September 17, 2002, 21:51

      I am still studying. I did really shitty on a quiz last week and the Chef gave me a chance to make it up and bring my grade up to a passing. I almost f'd that…

    •  by: ScottK

      September 15, 2002, 21:37

      Studying and other things! Between working at Sur La Table, school, and other things I have very little time. Oh, I have such a list of priorities, but you…

    •  by: ScottK

      September 9, 2002, 20:44

      More homework tonight for a big school project. Finals coming up soon. I had an important test today that was only 90 questions and have to pass for my Serve…

    •  by: ScottK

      September 8, 2002, 21:02

      Oi Vay... this was a weekend. I went to go get Adolfo on Friday after work and found him sick. He was burning up and stumbling around the retail store he works…

    •  by: ScottK

      September 2, 2002, 21:14

      I tend to neglect this diary more than I should. Sorry about that. Sorry goes to me more than anything because when I write things here it makes me feel better…

    •  by: ScottK

      August 19, 2002, 21:38

      Before my sleeping pill starts kicking in, I better get this written. About last night's entry about Adolfo. I got a couple comments in e-mail about it already…

    •  by: ScottK

      August 18, 2002, 22:18

      Since my last submission, I am nearly 100% healed. My ASS is working perfectly now and no more limping. My toe is nearly to it's natural color as well. If I am…

    •  by: ScottK

      August 13, 2002, 20:06

      I need sympathy. Well, I really need some help. I feel like one of those pathetic, sad, destraught people who can barely function. You see, Friday night while…

    •  by: ScottK

      August 6, 2002, 23:11

      I am writing after having gone to bed. I got back up because I am too wound up to sleep. So, I have some tea on the stove waiting to brew and a nibble of…

    •  by: ScottK

      August 3, 2002, 22:09

      What a day? I feel that I should have endless money available for myself and that if anyone looks at me cross eyed I get to kick their ass. Wouldn't that be…

    •  by: ScottK

      August 1, 2002, 22:08

      It's later... 11pm... and I just finished loading files on the server for my new site design. I made a lot of changes and deleted a lot of crap at the same…

    •  by: ScottK

      June 7, 2002, 21:43

      I am realizing that I feel and think about some things different lately. I am constantly under pressure to make ends meet and find myself coming up short a…

    •  by: ScottK

      June 6, 2002, 21:33

      So.... well, it has been a while since i wrote in my diary. I have barely paid any attention to anybody as well. What a selfish, no good bastard I am! I…

    •  by: ScottK

      May 19, 2002, 17:02

      I have not made very many serious diary entries in a while. Probably because I have been so wound up in life here in Las Vegas. I keep trying to do ALL the…

    •  by: ScottK

      May 14, 2002, 22:53

           Dear lord I have been busy. Today I had a couple meetings. The first one I ended up blowing off with COX Cable about buying advirtising…

    •  by: ScottK

      May 6, 2002, 22:52

      I am remiss for not making an entry for so long. I feel like I am moving in too many directions at one time and can hardly keep up. It's setting me into …

    •  by: ScottK

      April 26, 2002, 09:53

      So, what is going on? As usual I am working til late in the evening on the variety of projects I have taken on in my life. I simply wish they were providing…

    •  by: ScottK

      April 20, 2002, 20:13

      I've been working very hard on a new website the last couple days. It's a web site that is for adults only, so forgive me for not sharing. ANyway, it is…

    •  by: ScottK

      April 18, 2002, 10:14

      As you may have seen on the cover page, I am feeling a little distressed. Noah has been very sweet about it and has tried to be consoling. He said that I…

    •  by: ScottK

      April 17, 2002, 07:30

      The New Job - Follow up on Previous Entry - My Work - My Internal Struggle that I am losing.... STOP ASKING ME WHAT TIME I HAVE TO BE AT WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!…

    •  by: ScottK

      April 16, 2002, 21:56

      God, I am depressed tonight.

    •  by: ScottK

      April 15, 2002, 22:02

      Frustration. Stress. Tension. Anxiety. Nerves. Sadness. Thought... Everything in the previous sentence are words applying to the moment. I want to cry, but…

    •  by: ScottK

      April 12, 2002, 20:34

      Scott's Been Cooking Again! Well, tonight I was working on one of my new business plans and I was sitting…

    •  by: ScottK

      April 11, 2002, 19:12

      Here is a pic from the web cam of me and Adolfo. I realize that in the last few weeks I have been jumping around man to man. I also made this great…

    •  by: ScottK

      April 9, 2002, 17:59

      It's been just a few days since I made an entry in my diary. A few things have happened since then. Mostly, I have been missing Mikey. Mikey was supposed to…

    •  by: ScottK

      April 5, 2002, 10:58

      Well, I did it... I got some needed updates done on this site so it looks a little better and a little more intuitive. I keep adding features to it and …

    •  by: ScottK

      April 3, 2002, 23:44

      I have been thinking a lot about this whole Hector incident and why I didi what I did. Why did I crunch over this other guy while I strongly suspected …

    •  by: ScottK

      April 2, 2002, 09:48

      Well, I blew it totally! I feel like my chest has imploded and I really am ready to jump off a cliff. I just screwed everything up with Hector... as if …

    •  by: ScottK

      April 1, 2002, 11:35

      Another day gone by .... I woke up this morning looking at paying bills. Yes, every two weeks I spend the morning going through my bills and paying what I …

    •  by: ScottK

      March 31, 2002, 09:42

      Yesterday I commented about a guy named Hector whom I recently met and started seeing. Well, we had a date last night and went out for…

    •  by: ScottK

      March 30, 2002, 11:54

      Well, I got Mikey off to Toronto this morning and I actually got up at 5am to drive him there. What is more amazing than anything is that I was able to …

  • Category: nfm!* (not for mom)  (26)

    Means not for Mom… yeh

    • Feeling it by: ScottK

      July 27, 2016, 22:55

      I have no friends. Well, I do but they are all so far away. This really sucks that I am alone in that area. While C Monster is very important to me there are…

    • 24 Hours later by: ScottK

      October 13, 2015, 21:30

      Venting should be therapeutic. Catharsis should be lifting? Idk, but after yesterday's post I hoped to take some of the weight off my shoulders and find…

    • In a dark place.... by: ScottK

      October 12, 2015, 21:33

      When I started writing this blog as many years ago... it was a time when I was much happier. I am like a swimmer in the ocean caught in the rip tides these…

    • Misery Myself by: ScottK

      January 14, 2015, 23:04

      Lately things have been feeling so tightly wound that I feel like I am nothing but a bag of delicate twigs inside. Push a little on the outside wrapper and…

    • What is a Friend? by: ScottK

      October 11, 2014, 16:25

      One of the things I struggled with a lot here in San Francisco is that it has been really hard telling who I am friends with and who I am not. There are people…

    • and a little venting.... by: ScottK

      September 16, 2014, 14:38

      I am sitting here having gone through UrielsJournal.Com several times with quite a few updates. I tried to refine this thing I might have lost control of and…

    • speaking of notes... by: ScottK

      June 27, 2014, 18:43

      I am part of a production for a something called Secure Camp where we are trying to build a community, grass-roots program for the reduction of sexual assault.…

    • wrecked by: ScottK

      May 24, 2014, 19:21

      It happens time to time where I look around and I feel like I have no friends and bf is busy doing his own thing. I feels like I am really feeling so alone.…

    • Drifting by: ScottK

      April 26, 2014, 00:49

      Why should I start with a title before writing something here? I do and then I want to change it when done. I started today's title with: Drifting. There…

    • mad world by: ScottK

      April 5, 2014, 23:20

      Yep, I am back there again. Yep, really feeling like the world is slipping out from under my feet. As much as feel like I am struggling there is a conflict of…

    • The road less traveled is I by: ScottK

      January 25, 2014, 11:57

      I am a miserable human being on this planet these days mired down in what I think is everyone's expectations of me. Not exactly making a great proclamation…

    • ... Bus babble.... by: ScottK

      November 5, 2013, 14:16

      Seems odd that C Monster and I had another weekend so full of chaotic behavior that the end result seemingly brought us a little closer. He fell of the wagon…

    • my mind by: ScottK

      September 16, 2013, 12:06

      I don't talk about certain things very often. Seems when I do it goes against the grain of the flow of the universe. Count this one up as one of my stranger…

    • SGRF : Trip Report : Part 2 by: ScottK

      July 14, 2013, 10:35

      Less than a week ago I came home from the Wolf Creek Sanctuary (WCS) where the Spiritual Gathering for Radical Faeries (SGRF) was being held. I have known of…

    • Losty McDumbfuck by: ScottK

      May 14, 2013, 08:12

      Last night I took another evening for myself. These evenings seem to involve a lot of numbing myself out and getting into questionable circumstances. I bought…

    • Saturnalia by: ScottK

      December 16, 2012, 23:40

      So tonight I went to Saturnalia: Unbound Celebration! and as per usual the Faeboy Clan and the Comfort & Joy people created something so huge and so full…

    • Job v Burning Man by: ScottK

      May 15, 2012, 22:41

      Starting the new job on Friday and I hope I will be able to put some time in. I am so anxious to start working and working hard. Between the Stages I have been…

    • Monday Monday by: ScottK

      April 16, 2012, 18:45

      It's hard to put things into perspective sometimes when you think the end of the world is upon you. 'There for the grace of God go I' is something I have often…

    • blah...blah...blah... by: ScottK

      April 5, 2012, 22:27

      Well, if this goes like it has in my head right now... this is going to be one of those bitchy and whiny posts. I am stuck in sand and sinking. I drowning in…

    • Diarrhea of the Mouth by: ScottK

      March 29, 2012, 12:46

      It does not help to put a title in this blog before I start typing because invariably I go in a whole other direction. I am writing right now because I am…

    • 1964 by: ScottK

      July 12, 2011, 11:48

      I have shared a lot on this thing. This is my personal journal. I have also sorta faded from posting as often as I have because it feels like writing here…

    • The New Year by: ScottK

      January 5, 2011, 11:58

      At the end of 2010 I made a promise to myself that I would not put any negative statements on Facebook. I see a few people posting out their personal dramas on…

    • Now what? by: ScottK

      September 28, 2010, 19:38

      Can't say I can see the future... but after my last three entries I had hopes for something to go more positive. Now I deleted those three entries thinking I…

    • Something I made... by: ScottK

      August 9, 2010, 18:46

      Did you see the Burning Man blog where I posted the pics of the chaps I made? click

    • screwed up (nfm) by: ScottK

      May 17, 2010, 23:17

      It's been a challenge, but since my previous entry every day has ended differently than before. I am making some new efforts to further bend me. To bend myself…

    • sundayOver by: ScottK

      March 1, 2009, 21:37

      So, earlier today I saw a picture of Sam on myspace and I thought... only he can look that good in a hospital bed where he is with his health these days. I…

  • Category: Drama - Pass please  (52)

    There may be some drama in this one. It’s left in the entry. Period.

    • Feeling it by: ScottK

      July 27, 2016, 22:55

      I have no friends. Well, I do but they are all so far away. This really sucks that I am alone in that area. While C Monster is very important to me there are…

    • Welcome back stranger... you're fucked by: ScottK

      July 27, 2016, 22:38

      I have not been using this thing in a while. I kinda forgot about it for the most part. The thing is that over the last year I have been very conscience of the…

    • 24 Hours later by: ScottK

      October 13, 2015, 21:30

      Venting should be therapeutic. Catharsis should be lifting? Idk, but after yesterday's post I hoped to take some of the weight off my shoulders and find…

    • Inside Out by: ScottK

      January 16, 2015, 20:16

      My post yesterday felt a little on the dramatic side. I can feel like I am in some very dark places some times. My life... swear... feels like I am caught in…

    • More Crazy Dreams by: ScottK

      September 27, 2014, 13:47

      I have been having some weird dreams again lately. Nothing too freaky, but Salvador Dali might appreciate the visual anyway. Dream #1 The night of my last…

    • and a little venting.... by: ScottK

      September 16, 2014, 14:38

      I am sitting here having gone through UrielsJournal.Com several times with quite a few updates. I tried to refine this thing I might have lost control of and…

    • a letter to Jack K I will never send by: ScottK

      May 29, 2014, 15:43

      It's been a while since there was any communication and it is probably better that way as long as things are the way they are. All the reasons it seems you,…

    • wrecked by: ScottK

      May 24, 2014, 19:21

      It happens time to time where I look around and I feel like I have no friends and bf is busy doing his own thing. I feels like I am really feeling so alone.…

    • my last note to Alexanders by: ScottK

      April 30, 2014, 08:49

      I want to thank Erin and Sean for your incredible empathy during this crazy time. When I came by the restaurant yesterday I was able to remember how much I…

    • Drifting by: ScottK

      April 26, 2014, 00:49

      Why should I start with a title before writing something here? I do and then I want to change it when done. I started today's title with: Drifting. There…

    • mad world by: ScottK

      April 5, 2014, 23:20

      Yep, I am back there again. Yep, really feeling like the world is slipping out from under my feet. As much as feel like I am struggling there is a conflict of…

    • Just When by: ScottK

      February 15, 2014, 10:08

      Just when I thought I could get away from drama in my life (yeah right), the path is changed. I thought in my previous post that I would be settling with C…

    • Bill Collectors by: ScottK

      February 10, 2014, 13:52

      My mom called to say a bill collector looking for me called my biological sister looking for me??? I have not talked or communicated with her in decades. Ins…

    • The road less traveled is I by: ScottK

      January 25, 2014, 11:57

      I am a miserable human being on this planet these days mired down in what I think is everyone's expectations of me. Not exactly making a great proclamation…

    • ... Bus babble.... by: ScottK

      November 5, 2013, 14:16

      Seems odd that C Monster and I had another weekend so full of chaotic behavior that the end result seemingly brought us a little closer. He fell of the wagon…

    • thinking more... weighty shit by: ScottK

      October 14, 2013, 10:58

      The weight of the world is on me as I write this. Dramatic as it sounds, I cannot stop thinking about everything. My last entry was an attempt to douse a…

    • Just a few little thoughts added by: ScottK

      September 25, 2013, 11:56

      After my previous post, maybe right now a Quija Board is not in my immediate future. After reading through, even for me, I cannot justify trying that right…

    • Against the wall again by: ScottK

      July 29, 2013, 18:50

      One of the older faeries here in the city sent me a text message asking I we could meet and talk. He mentioned my current hard times and was offering to be a…

    • New Path Ahead by: ScottK

      July 3, 2013, 08:57

      Good Morning Monday... today I am unemployed and have no income coming in at all. I spent much of the weekend (when sober) contemplating how today was to…

    • Losty McDumbfuck by: ScottK

      May 14, 2013, 08:12

      Last night I took another evening for myself. These evenings seem to involve a lot of numbing myself out and getting into questionable circumstances. I bought…

    • I am a horrible human by: ScottK

      May 9, 2013, 22:10

      So, I have been made aware what a shitty human I seem to be. It's been been pointed out by other people inside and outside of my head. Outside my head I have…

    • Too long... by: ScottK

      May 8, 2013, 21:35

      As usual it is a year and a day since I made my last entry so much has happened and I forget about this thing. This blog. I used to be so good at keeping it…

    • Happy New Year by: ScottK

      January 1, 2013, 12:33

      C Monster and I decided to play through the new year separately because I wanted to 'party' while he was choosing to remain sober after a drunken disaster my…

    • SantaCon SF on Saturday by: ScottK

      December 17, 2012, 07:47

      Well, finally hit SantaCon in SF this weekend and went with C Monster. He actually dressed up in costume and went outside.... wow. While the day may not…

    • A week ago - I got hit by a bus by: ScottK

      September 16, 2012, 10:23

      A week ago Friday I got hit by a bus while riding a bike I recently got. I got the bike right before Burning Man and started riding it the week I returned. I…

    • it's broken by: ScottK

      July 13, 2012, 18:38

      I have seen people walking around in this life and thought - he's broken. You can see some people are stuck. Some people are still in the 70's, 80's or trapped…

    • Singel Again? by: ScottK

      June 17, 2012, 07:27

      Last night had another big fight with C. Not sure what it was about or where it was coming from. BUT, I felt a million miles away from his last night. I…

    • Previous post by: ScottK

      June 10, 2012, 12:29

      I went on a rant in one of three posts I made today. Earlier a post about my father was supposed to be about the bike ride. The correlation is this. My father…

    • Tuesday after by: ScottK

      April 17, 2012, 23:03

      A night later and I am much closer to being healthy again. My formula for fighting any cold is a mass amount of Nyquil and Dayquil. I went to the market…

    • Monday Monday by: ScottK

      April 16, 2012, 18:45

      It's hard to put things into perspective sometimes when you think the end of the world is upon you. 'There for the grace of God go I' is something I have often…

    • blah...blah...blah... by: ScottK

      April 5, 2012, 22:27

      Well, if this goes like it has in my head right now... this is going to be one of those bitchy and whiny posts. I am stuck in sand and sinking. I drowning in…

    • San Francisco ... back! by: ScottK

      November 6, 2011, 22:09

      When things fell apart at my last place, I went to see my mom for a week while I regrouped. It was a good decision on some levels, but financially it sorta had…

    • Aftermath by: ScottK

      November 3, 2011, 18:40

      I have been at my moms since Tuesday and since becoming officially homeless in San Francisco. Nothing is carved in stone and life has to be a little fluid…

    • All around me are... by: ScottK

      July 12, 2011, 10:29

      In my life there are certain energies that I think I have exuded. No matter where I move in the world and no matter what changes I make in life there are…

    • Good Morning by: ScottK

      May 26, 2011, 07:07

      This day has started off very weird and I am not liking the energy in the air. I am sitting at work feeling really uncomfortable and feel a lot of anxiety…

    • In My Head by: ScottK

      May 12, 2011, 23:18

      I am feeling very reflective lately and without any doubt it is all about the coming changes coming into my life. I made the leap from the plane to say 'I am…

    • Burned and Broken by: ScottK

      March 2, 2011, 22:55

      What is it about the last couple of years where I seemingly burned a lot of bridges as if I was making some strange purge of people from my life? It started…

    • My 2011 Burning Man by: ScottK

      February 22, 2011, 20:05

      I updated my 2011 page for Burning Man today because as I roll forward I want some sense of my plans posted even if no one is paying attention. Grr... Pity…

    • 2011 Has Begun by: ScottK

      January 13, 2011, 12:00

      I have been very reflective the last couple of weeks with the beginning of the year. I am questioning my place in the community I have come to love so…

    • Grrrrrrr by: ScottK

      December 1, 2010, 19:32

      There are some constants in this universe around me I cannot seem to escape: I am a magnet for idiot drivers on the road; lately is seems like it is always…

    • Today to Tomorrow by: ScottK

      November 4, 2010, 12:56

      I have been blessed on many levels and I need to count those blessings more often. I know my prayers are being heard, but even though there is a long delay in…

    • Tell me why? by: ScottK

      November 4, 2010, 12:48

      I have not been posting here very often, I think I am now apologizing amost weekly, but am sick by where I am in life and the direction it is all going…

    • Meh by: ScottK

      September 28, 2010, 19:51

      I just read through some of this shit... I hated it all.

    • Now what? by: ScottK

      September 28, 2010, 19:38

      Can't say I can see the future... but after my last three entries I had hopes for something to go more positive. Now I deleted those three entries thinking I…

    • Identity Crisis by: ScottK

      September 23, 2010, 10:31

      Since coming back from Burning Man I have made a lot of promises to myself, most of which I have managed to keep. These promises are all for my personal…

    • Memories by: ScottK

      June 26, 2010, 22:34

      I spent part of my evening uploading pictures to my web site here. It was a walk through memory lane that I do not think I was ready for emotionally. To see…

    • just sayin more by: ScottK

      June 5, 2010, 19:40

      I have not been posting in the last couple weeks because some of the things weighing heavily on my mind have been more dramatic sounding then they are worth.…

    • not a good time by: ScottK

      May 20, 2010, 21:35

      There are times when the weight of the world is stting on one's chest and laughing while spitting in your face. Although it feels like that, it's good to…

    • kvetching by: ScottK

      September 15, 2009, 22:00

      so on Facebook I did a bit of a rant today because of someone else's entry. It was a super whine from someone I carried a lot of respect for. Ugh, without…

    • sundayOver by: ScottK

      March 1, 2009, 21:37

      So, earlier today I saw a picture of Sam on myspace and I thought... only he can look that good in a hospital bed where he is with his health these days. I…

    • Long Winded.... by: ScottK

      March 6, 2006, 23:14

      Allergy season is totaly kicking my ass and I have made my own cocktail of pills to fight it. I take Claritin-D and one of the Pink Pills at the same time. The…

    • Traveling: IN Whittier, CA by: ScottK

      February 15, 2006, 08:11

      We are curently traveling and are in Whittier, California. We left Las Vegas on Monday and went to my dad's place. My dad (www..com) has changed so much…

  • Category: verbal diahrea  (93)
    • Welcome back stranger... you're fucked by: ScottK

      July 27, 2016, 22:38

      I have not been using this thing in a while. I kinda forgot about it for the most part. The thing is that over the last year I have been very conscience of the…

    • BrokenWifi.Com by: ScottK

      October 12, 2015, 21:10

      I started a second blog for my little nods of the world around me. Maybe someone will want to share in my signal. Alas it is still new and does not have so…

    • 6 months later by: ScottK

      July 15, 2015, 22:32

      I am still alive... not that there is any great mystery to anyone paying any kind of attention. No one reads this blog any more and with the rise of Facebook,…

    • Inside Out by: ScottK

      January 16, 2015, 20:16

      My post yesterday felt a little on the dramatic side. I can feel like I am in some very dark places some times. My life... swear... feels like I am caught in…

    • Misery Myself by: ScottK

      January 14, 2015, 23:04

      Lately things have been feeling so tightly wound that I feel like I am nothing but a bag of delicate twigs inside. Push a little on the outside wrapper and…

    • Just some whimsy by: ScottK

      January 7, 2015, 20:13

      I turned 50 since I last really posted and this was the most unceremonious and non-validating year I have ever experienced. Is it weird I am having flashbacks…

    • If you are reading this please comment below... by: ScottK

      January 7, 2015, 19:56

      My stats show me that people are coming to my site, but I have no idea if anyone is paying attention at all. This blog has changed so much since I started…

    • Me Myself and I - wait, did this one  by: ScottK

      October 24, 2014, 10:22

      So, the last few days has been a course of reflection and you might have noted in my last 2 posts I talked a lot about potentially moving to Portland very…

    • Portland: Alone or Together? by: ScottK

      October 24, 2014, 08:47

      I made another entry on here earlier today and also reached out to a few people in Portland and had this strange sense of purpose again. It was as if I was…

    • and a little venting.... by: ScottK

      September 16, 2014, 14:38

      I am sitting here having gone through UrielsJournal.Com several times with quite a few updates. I tried to refine this thing I might have lost control of and…

    • 2014 September Check-in by: ScottK

      September 16, 2014, 09:13

      Good morning world. I looked at my analytics and it seems like people are still coming to my site, but seem to be looking at the pages with naked pics on them…

    • Still wondering what's next... by: ScottK

      May 29, 2014, 15:18

      So I sit here thinking about my future wondering where it will take me. Am I the driver or the passenger? It hardly seems logical that a 50 year old guy can…

    • Drifting by: ScottK

      April 26, 2014, 00:49

      Why should I start with a title before writing something here? I do and then I want to change it when done. I started today's title with: Drifting. There…

    • Working it by: ScottK

      February 13, 2014, 00:42

      Just thinking ahead for my plans this year. Although I find it hard to forge time for this blog/diary but it's a matter of forging what is needed. Deadline…

    • The road less traveled is I by: ScottK

      January 25, 2014, 11:57

      I am a miserable human being on this planet these days mired down in what I think is everyone's expectations of me. Not exactly making a great proclamation…

    • ... Bus babble.... by: ScottK

      November 5, 2013, 14:16

      Seems odd that C Monster and I had another weekend so full of chaotic behavior that the end result seemingly brought us a little closer. He fell of the wagon…

    • Quickie quickie by: ScottK

      October 26, 2013, 13:10

      So I recorded a vblog today and am going to wrap it in new graphics then publish hopefully tomorrow. I started it but did not get far before I had to leave for…

    • ...tinkering along... by: ScottK

      October 23, 2013, 00:11

      Late into the night and getting ready for bed. How is it I am 48 years old, going on 49, and still trying to figure myself out. What sucks is, I can;t blame…

    • thinking more... weighty shit by: ScottK

      October 14, 2013, 10:58

      The weight of the world is on me as I write this. Dramatic as it sounds, I cannot stop thinking about everything. My last entry was an attempt to douse a…

    • no shortage of thought by: ScottK

      October 12, 2013, 09:41

      Lately, I have had a lot of reasons to spend time thinking about the practical nature of my life rather than the spiritual and fluffy-fluffy shit. Reading my…

    • ...book thought.... by: ScottK

      September 30, 2013, 15:28

      Well, among my many talents is writing. I have been writing most of my life and it would be awesome to see these published one day. But that may not be my…

    • my mind by: ScottK

      September 16, 2013, 12:06

      I don't talk about certain things very often. Seems when I do it goes against the grain of the flow of the universe. Count this one up as one of my stranger…

    • Updates and Stats by: ScottK

      September 12, 2013, 11:39

      Taken by Justin of Justin & Nathan www.sunguardians.net my camp mates! Funny about keeping a personal blog updated... sometimes this damn things…

    • Goals and plans 2013 to 2014 by: ScottK

      September 12, 2013, 11:15

      Having trouble focusing on what I need for me. I came back from Burning Man with some new goals and have not written any of them down. Everything is a…

    • Post Burning Man thoughts by: ScottK

      September 9, 2013, 13:59

      It's been a week since coming back from Burning Man and the head trip continues. All the baggage I started off with has shifted on meaning. I stayed sober,…

    • Against the wall again by: ScottK

      July 29, 2013, 18:50

      One of the older faeries here in the city sent me a text message asking I we could meet and talk. He mentioned my current hard times and was offering to be a…

    • Amazing is what amazing does by: ScottK

      July 15, 2013, 11:46

      I saw this today in a stupid commercial... but it's what is missing when a lot of people look at me and the things I do. "A lot of people" seem to exclude a…

    • SGRF : Trip Report : Part 2 by: ScottK

      July 14, 2013, 10:35

      Less than a week ago I came home from the Wolf Creek Sanctuary (WCS) where the Spiritual Gathering for Radical Faeries (SGRF) was being held. I have known of…

    • Blah blah blah by: ScottK

      May 18, 2013, 06:53

      Seriously, some of the shit that gets stuck in my head would boggle a lot of minds. Its been so messy up there and I am working on ways to get some focus back.…

    • Too long... by: ScottK

      May 8, 2013, 21:35

      As usual it is a year and a day since I made my last entry so much has happened and I forget about this thing. This blog. I used to be so good at keeping it…

    • Yeah I know... been a while by: ScottK

      February 27, 2013, 22:11

      I have not written here in a while for reasons I cannot say. I know I was turned off when I discovered someone was reading these things and writing me and…

    • Happy New Year by: ScottK

      January 1, 2013, 12:33

      C Monster and I decided to play through the new year separately because I wanted to 'party' while he was choosing to remain sober after a drunken disaster my…

    • SantaCon SF on Saturday by: ScottK

      December 17, 2012, 07:47

      Well, finally hit SantaCon in SF this weekend and went with C Monster. He actually dressed up in costume and went outside.... wow. While the day may not…

    • just gotta write something by: ScottK

      November 24, 2012, 23:32

      I tend to let this thing slide because I am going in too many directions at a time and just need to let people - who give a shit - I am still alive. And I…

    • Some words by: ScottK

      September 18, 2012, 20:38

      I don't feel like I get very many good pics of me.But then again, I am feeling a little deflated because I have not been able to go to the gym or even take…

    • A week ago - I got hit by a bus by: ScottK

      September 16, 2012, 10:23

      A week ago Friday I got hit by a bus while riding a bike I recently got. I got the bike right before Burning Man and started riding it the week I returned. I…

    • ugh... by: ScottK

      July 18, 2012, 17:17

      When I read back to some of my posts I feel my stomach drop. Not that anyone is really reading these posts... but it's all good. ...sigh

    • it's broken by: ScottK

      July 13, 2012, 18:38

      I have seen people walking around in this life and thought - he's broken. You can see some people are stuck. Some people are still in the 70's, 80's or trapped…

    • Based on my past entry by: ScottK

      July 13, 2012, 17:49

      Well, I had some ideas to write something that fettered out my thoughts once again, but this one will start based on my last entry.  CK and I have had a lot…

    • Singel Again? by: ScottK

      June 17, 2012, 07:27

      Last night had another big fight with C. Not sure what it was about or where it was coming from. BUT, I felt a million miles away from his last night. I…

    • Late night Babble by: ScottK

      June 13, 2012, 21:34

      I am so tired... getting ready for bed. Working hard every day and using every ounce of energy I have to produce and deliver some amazing pastry at work. I…

    • Snap Shot by: ScottK

      June 6, 2012, 21:16

      I have not posted a video blog in a long while. The only reason is that I end up spending an ungodly amount of time rendering it then uploading it... (heavy…

    • Following my last rant... by: ScottK

      May 30, 2012, 16:06

      For all of you who read last night's blog post I want to assure you I cleared the air on almost all the points made in it. Today was pretty good, but I took my…

    • Verbal Diahrea by: ScottK

      May 29, 2012, 17:10

      I feel like everything is falling apart around me and the things that I thought were making me happy are now things torturing me inside. This cannot be the…

    • a little prayer by: ScottK

      May 19, 2012, 23:23

      The new job is going really well and I hope that it keeps going that way. I will do everything I can to keep it going that way. So, this is my new start and…

    • Job v Burning Man by: ScottK

      May 15, 2012, 22:41

      Starting the new job on Friday and I hope I will be able to put some time in. I am so anxious to start working and working hard. Between the Stages I have been…

    • #FF by: ScottK

      May 11, 2012, 08:08

      I am supposed to be starting my new job on Monday so I have a full weekend ahead of myself. Today I am going to hang at Delores Park and spend some time just…

    • Another Week Gone by: ScottK

      April 22, 2012, 21:03

      New rule... don't apply a title to these entries until it is actually written. Usually it never finishes the way it was intended to begin. Including but not…

    • Monday Monday by: ScottK

      April 16, 2012, 18:45

      It's hard to put things into perspective sometimes when you think the end of the world is upon you. 'There for the grace of God go I' is something I have often…

    • The Weekend End by: ScottK

      April 15, 2012, 22:53

      The weekend is almost over and definitely a weird one. I was able to predict... really without knowing... that we were 4 days following a full moon because…

    • get'n some Verbal by: ScottK

      April 9, 2012, 22:38

      I feel like the highs in the last years have been equal to the lows. This universe is  a double edged knife I feel like I am dancing around it. As I sit here…

    • blah...blah...blah... by: ScottK

      April 5, 2012, 22:27

      Well, if this goes like it has in my head right now... this is going to be one of those bitchy and whiny posts. I am stuck in sand and sinking. I drowning in…

    • When I win the Lottery by: ScottK

      March 30, 2012, 17:35

      So what is hope? What is salvation? What is happiness? I can;t say I have known any of these things in such a very long time. There has been about a dozen…

    • Diarrhea of the Mouth by: ScottK

      March 29, 2012, 12:46

      It does not help to put a title in this blog before I start typing because invariably I go in a whole other direction. I am writing right now because I am…

    • Frustrated with Bullshit by: ScottK

      March 28, 2012, 23:50

      The month is coming to an end and with it the complete lack of faith that the universe and I are going to come to terms with my employment. I am clawing at air…

    • A New World by: ScottK

      November 8, 2011, 19:36

      I have a ton of shit to do. Writing in my blogs is something I do not have time to do... but this makes two today. I just posted over in gay-burners.com as…

    • vBlog: Back in San Francisco by: ScottK

      November 8, 2011, 10:59

      Well, I am back in San Francisco and am treading water. I feel different being here again. I feel like I belong here right now... not sure how long that will…

    • San Francisco ... back! by: ScottK

      November 6, 2011, 22:09

      When things fell apart at my last place, I went to see my mom for a week while I regrouped. It was a good decision on some levels, but financially it sorta had…

    • Aftermath by: ScottK

      November 3, 2011, 18:40

      I have been at my moms since Tuesday and since becoming officially homeless in San Francisco. Nothing is carved in stone and life has to be a little fluid…

    • Stressed Out / Fried Out by: ScottK

      October 28, 2011, 19:17

      Days are ticking down to the point where I have to move out of my current situation and need to find a new one. The main reason for the shift was to get away…

    • What just happen???? by: ScottK

      October 22, 2011, 22:29

      This is actually part 2 of a story... or shall I say the non-readers digest version. I posted a very clean version of this tale on www.gayburners.com choosing…

    • VLOG: Sunset in San Francisco by: ScottK

      September 27, 2011, 21:06

      Was just a beautiful night and I got all video happy again!

    • VLOG: Friends by: ScottK

      September 21, 2011, 10:13

      Playing with video stuff... what do you think?

    • VLOG: Thoughts by: ScottK

      September 19, 2011, 11:18

      There is a point just after 7 mins where it gets a little long... the transition before the out take should be FF...

    • back from where... by: ScottK

      September 15, 2011, 20:53

      I have not written anything here since coming back from Burning Man probably because I really have not completely landed. When I try putting the puzzle pieces…

    • Another Day by: ScottK

      July 15, 2011, 20:56

      There are a lot of days that come and go when it feels like I am literally falling into a whole. Today was like that, seems like it is happening once a week,…

    • 1964 by: ScottK

      July 12, 2011, 11:48

      I have shared a lot on this thing. This is my personal journal. I have also sorta faded from posting as often as I have because it feels like writing here…

    • All around me are... by: ScottK

      July 12, 2011, 10:29

      In my life there are certain energies that I think I have exuded. No matter where I move in the world and no matter what changes I make in life there are…

    • Hippieville by: ScottK

      June 9, 2011, 07:49

      Well, I have arrived in San Francisco and settled in. It was a slightly bouncy landing and more expensive than I expected. I was not very happy about the…

    • Moving Day by: ScottK

      May 30, 2011, 14:31

      Today is officially the first day of moving. That is the act of getting rid of, packing, sorting and eventually trashing a lot of what I have been carrying…

    • Good Morning by: ScottK

      May 26, 2011, 07:07

      This day has started off very weird and I am not liking the energy in the air. I am sitting at work feeling really uncomfortable and feel a lot of anxiety…

    • Car Gone - New(*) Bike by: ScottK

      May 22, 2011, 20:26

      Well the truck is now gone and I am still working in vegas, but now I seem to be working a lot and actually making money. Quandary ..* I am riding this…

    • Is it June yet? by: ScottK

      May 19, 2011, 18:20

      Well, I got a call Wednesday to go and interview at a local web company and I went and they pulled me in on the spot. No doubt because a friend of mine works…

    • In My Head by: ScottK

      May 12, 2011, 23:18

      I am feeling very reflective lately and without any doubt it is all about the coming changes coming into my life. I made the leap from the plane to say 'I am…

    • San Francisco by: ScottK

      April 3, 2011, 20:40

      I arrived in San Fran on Friday for 3 days of what was called a Burning Man Leadership Summit. My role in the community has been more of a facilitator with…

    • Where? What? Huh? by: ScottK

      February 4, 2011, 13:38

      Been feeling like making an entry, but my thoughts were focusing on negative things and I think I need to vary away from all that. I get so angry when I think…

    • 2011 Has Begun by: ScottK

      January 13, 2011, 12:00

      I have been very reflective the last couple of weeks with the beginning of the year. I am questioning my place in the community I have come to love so…

    • Hey Sexy by: ScottK

      January 6, 2011, 10:25

      Somehow this morning I seem to have smokers voice... what is up with that? Do I sound sexy, baby? HA HA HA... I already started working this morning after an…

    • Reflections by: ScottK

      January 5, 2011, 23:52

      Well, the day is winding down and I feel lik the face life of UrielsJournal is basically done. I am sure I will add more over time. I am also very interested…

    • The New Year by: ScottK

      January 5, 2011, 11:58

      At the end of 2010 I made a promise to myself that I would not put any negative statements on Facebook. I see a few people posting out their personal dramas on…

    • Grrrrrrr by: ScottK

      December 1, 2010, 19:32

      There are some constants in this universe around me I cannot seem to escape: I am a magnet for idiot drivers on the road; lately is seems like it is always…

    • Happy Tuesday by: ScottK

      November 30, 2010, 11:27

      Well, I know most of my blogs are just me bitching about this or that. Maybe relaying too much on my own personal drama. Frankly, I am trying to make my left…

    • Meh by: ScottK

      September 28, 2010, 19:51

      I just read through some of this shit... I hated it all.

    • Identity Crisis by: ScottK

      September 23, 2010, 10:31

      Since coming back from Burning Man I have made a lot of promises to myself, most of which I have managed to keep. These promises are all for my personal…

    • Things that matter by: ScottK

      August 9, 2010, 18:44

      Being able to look someone in the eye Being able to hug someone at any time Being able to offer a helping hand Being able to accept a helping…

    • 10 Things... by: ScottK

      August 2, 2010, 07:13

      10 Things I love about Vegas Pools on hot days The comfort and lack of agendas from fellow burners Sunset Moon rise The hills surrounding the city…

    • 10 Things... by: ScottK

      August 2, 2010, 07:07

      10 things I hate about Vegas That people are routinely unreliable, flaky, and ambivalent That people really exist in their own micro-verse in spite of…

    • Funday Friday by: ScottK

      July 23, 2010, 08:30

      So it begins... I feel like there is a dark cloud following me around again. It is only because I have taken so much on my shoulders once again and am very…

    • What's next? by: ScottK

      July 5, 2010, 16:04

      So, I went on another interview today and I am sure I bombed it - again. He loved my work and then he had me run some kind of test... but it was horrible. I…

    • birthday @ FireFly Las Vegas by: ScottK

      December 30, 2006, 12:12

      Last night was my birthday gathering at Firefly. Adolfo made all the arrangements and talked to some or all of my freinds and it was a nice occasion. Woody…

    • Long Winded.... by: ScottK

      March 6, 2006, 23:14

      Allergy season is totaly kicking my ass and I have made my own cocktail of pills to fight it. I take Claritin-D and one of the Pink Pills at the same time. The…

    • Schtuffffffffffffff.... by: ScottK

      March 3, 2006, 01:51

      OMFG is it March already. What the hell happen???? It seems Feb went by so fast... we're almost a 1/4 of the year into 2006. Well, as it turns out I have been…

    • Daydreaming by: ScottK

      February 4, 2006, 01:37

      At work again and am looking forward to getting through Feb successfully. This is going to be a busy month, I think. We are taking a small vacation, Adolfo's…

  • Category: Feeling it  (65)
    • Feeling it by: ScottK

      July 27, 2016, 22:55

      I have no friends. Well, I do but they are all so far away. This really sucks that I am alone in that area. While C Monster is very important to me there are…

    • New Neuro Pathways by: ScottK

      October 20, 2015, 21:43

      Been spending some time thinking a lot about what makes me - me - in the now. My bf and I were traveling this last weekend and one of the things we like to do…

    • 6 months later by: ScottK

      July 15, 2015, 22:32

      I am still alive... not that there is any great mystery to anyone paying any kind of attention. No one reads this blog any more and with the rise of Facebook,…

    • Inside Out by: ScottK

      January 16, 2015, 20:16

      My post yesterday felt a little on the dramatic side. I can feel like I am in some very dark places some times. My life... swear... feels like I am caught in…

    • Happy Veterans Day: My Lemonade Tale by: ScottK

      November 11, 2014, 12:01

      I often see very positive energy coming my way and while I see it, energy does not always become matter. I wish there was more of a manifestation of something…

    • Me Myself and I - wait, did this one  by: ScottK

      October 24, 2014, 10:22

      So, the last few days has been a course of reflection and you might have noted in my last 2 posts I talked a lot about potentially moving to Portland very…

    • Portland in November by: ScottK

      October 22, 2014, 17:23

      Time to stop kidding myself and stop coasting on nothing. I have been hiding out at CMonster's place for a while and want to move on. The plan right now is…

    • What is a Friend? by: ScottK

      October 11, 2014, 16:25

      One of the things I struggled with a lot here in San Francisco is that it has been really hard telling who I am friends with and who I am not. There are people…

    • An Exhausting Weekend by: ScottK

      October 7, 2014, 07:20

      It was one of those weekends. It was one of those weekends when you are called to be the +1 with your partner and all his college friends who were getting…

    • 2014 September Check-in by: ScottK

      September 16, 2014, 09:13

      Good morning world. I looked at my analytics and it seems like people are still coming to my site, but seem to be looking at the pages with naked pics on them…

    • Still wondering what's next... by: ScottK

      May 29, 2014, 15:18

      So I sit here thinking about my future wondering where it will take me. Am I the driver or the passenger? It hardly seems logical that a 50 year old guy can…

    • Getting motivated for moving on by: ScottK

      April 30, 2014, 22:36

      So, Alexanders is in the rear view mirror and I am not heading anywhere yet. I am very bummed out that this did not give me any space to spread my wings. I…

    • my resignation @ Alexanders Steakhouse by: ScottK

      April 26, 2014, 12:06

      Below is an email I began writing to Gail this morning with the anticipation we could make a new path toward moving into the future that I did not send, but…

    • Drifting by: ScottK

      April 26, 2014, 00:49

      Why should I start with a title before writing something here? I do and then I want to change it when done. I started today's title with: Drifting. There…

    • More than 10% possible by: ScottK

      April 10, 2014, 01:08

      I never thought reading self-improvement books would be something I would do. But, if you read a lot of my past posts you can see where I have been dealing…

    • Working it by: ScottK

      February 13, 2014, 00:42

      Just thinking ahead for my plans this year. Although I find it hard to forge time for this blog/diary but it's a matter of forging what is needed. Deadline…

    •  by: ScottK

      January 26, 2014, 00:57

      So, not a lot pf feedback on my post earlier today. But, the idea that this might be considered a pit party irks the unholy shit out of my head. I got a couple…

    • ... Bus babble.... by: ScottK

      November 5, 2013, 14:16

      Seems odd that C Monster and I had another weekend so full of chaotic behavior that the end result seemingly brought us a little closer. He fell of the wagon…

    • Quickie quickie by: ScottK

      October 26, 2013, 13:10

      So I recorded a vblog today and am going to wrap it in new graphics then publish hopefully tomorrow. I started it but did not get far before I had to leave for…

    • thinking more... weighty shit by: ScottK

      October 14, 2013, 10:58

      The weight of the world is on me as I write this. Dramatic as it sounds, I cannot stop thinking about everything. My last entry was an attempt to douse a…

    • no shortage of thought by: ScottK

      October 12, 2013, 09:41

      Lately, I have had a lot of reasons to spend time thinking about the practical nature of my life rather than the spiritual and fluffy-fluffy shit. Reading my…

    • Just a few little thoughts added by: ScottK

      September 25, 2013, 11:56

      After my previous post, maybe right now a Quija Board is not in my immediate future. After reading through, even for me, I cannot justify trying that right…

    • my mind by: ScottK

      September 16, 2013, 12:06

      I don't talk about certain things very often. Seems when I do it goes against the grain of the flow of the universe. Count this one up as one of my stranger…

    • Goals and plans 2013 to 2014 by: ScottK

      September 12, 2013, 11:15

      Having trouble focusing on what I need for me. I came back from Burning Man with some new goals and have not written any of them down. Everything is a…

    • Post Burning Man thoughts by: ScottK

      September 9, 2013, 13:59

      It's been a week since coming back from Burning Man and the head trip continues. All the baggage I started off with has shifted on meaning. I stayed sober,…

    • Amazing is what amazing does by: ScottK

      July 15, 2013, 11:46

      I saw this today in a stupid commercial... but it's what is missing when a lot of people look at me and the things I do. "A lot of people" seem to exclude a…

    • SGRF : Trip Report : Part 2 by: ScottK

      July 14, 2013, 10:35

      Less than a week ago I came home from the Wolf Creek Sanctuary (WCS) where the Spiritual Gathering for Radical Faeries (SGRF) was being held. I have known of…

    • Us, We, Them: Trip Report Part1 by: ScottK

      July 11, 2013, 11:18

      I disappeared off the earth again for a few days while doing some self discovery. I went to a place I dreamed about going to for as many as 6 years; it was…

    • I am a horrible human by: ScottK

      May 9, 2013, 22:10

      So, I have been made aware what a shitty human I seem to be. It's been been pointed out by other people inside and outside of my head. Outside my head I have…

    • Too long... by: ScottK

      May 8, 2013, 21:35

      As usual it is a year and a day since I made my last entry so much has happened and I forget about this thing. This blog. I used to be so good at keeping it…

    • Happy New Year by: ScottK

      January 1, 2013, 12:33

      C Monster and I decided to play through the new year separately because I wanted to 'party' while he was choosing to remain sober after a drunken disaster my…

    • SantaCon SF on Saturday by: ScottK

      December 17, 2012, 07:47

      Well, finally hit SantaCon in SF this weekend and went with C Monster. He actually dressed up in costume and went outside.... wow. While the day may not…

    • just gotta write something by: ScottK

      November 24, 2012, 23:32

      I tend to let this thing slide because I am going in too many directions at a time and just need to let people - who give a shit - I am still alive. And I…

    • Back from Burning Man by: ScottK

      September 8, 2012, 10:53

      I arrived back in San Francisco in the weeeee hours of Tuesday morning (about 3:00 am) and had to be off to work by 6:00 am. The drive home took 2x longer than…

    • Based on my past entry by: ScottK

      July 13, 2012, 17:49

      Well, I had some ideas to write something that fettered out my thoughts once again, but this one will start based on my last entry.  CK and I have had a lot…

    • Tuesday after by: ScottK

      April 17, 2012, 23:03

      A night later and I am much closer to being healthy again. My formula for fighting any cold is a mass amount of Nyquil and Dayquil. I went to the market…

    • The Weekend End by: ScottK

      April 15, 2012, 22:53

      The weekend is almost over and definitely a weird one. I was able to predict... really without knowing... that we were 4 days following a full moon because…

    • a dream last night by: ScottK

      April 11, 2012, 07:32

      Soundtrack for this posting: play as you read So, I woke up today feeling a little puzzled over something ... I had a dream last night that I was…

    • get'n some Verbal by: ScottK

      April 9, 2012, 22:38

      I feel like the highs in the last years have been equal to the lows. This universe is  a double edged knife I feel like I am dancing around it. As I sit here…

    • When I win the Lottery by: ScottK

      March 30, 2012, 17:35

      So what is hope? What is salvation? What is happiness? I can;t say I have known any of these things in such a very long time. There has been about a dozen…

    • A New World by: ScottK

      November 8, 2011, 19:36

      I have a ton of shit to do. Writing in my blogs is something I do not have time to do... but this makes two today. I just posted over in gay-burners.com as…

    • What just happen???? by: ScottK

      October 22, 2011, 22:29

      This is actually part 2 of a story... or shall I say the non-readers digest version. I posted a very clean version of this tale on www.gayburners.com choosing…

    • Memories Love Lost by: ScottK

      October 22, 2011, 21:36

      Today I had some thoughts left over from yesterday. Well, after a restless night last night I woke up feeling kinda crappy. Once in a while I have dreams…

    • VLOG: Sunset in San Francisco by: ScottK

      September 27, 2011, 21:06

      Was just a beautiful night and I got all video happy again!

    • VLOG: Friends by: ScottK

      September 21, 2011, 10:13

      Playing with video stuff... what do you think?

    • back from where... by: ScottK

      September 15, 2011, 20:53

      I have not written anything here since coming back from Burning Man probably because I really have not completely landed. When I try putting the puzzle pieces…

    • Hippieville by: ScottK

      June 9, 2011, 07:49

      Well, I have arrived in San Francisco and settled in. It was a slightly bouncy landing and more expensive than I expected. I was not very happy about the…

    • Friends by: ScottK

      May 16, 2011, 21:29

      After my last posting I got calls from my mom and sis-Christine trying to find out if I was ready to drive off a bridge somewhere. I love their concern, but no…

    • In My Head by: ScottK

      May 12, 2011, 23:18

      I am feeling very reflective lately and without any doubt it is all about the coming changes coming into my life. I made the leap from the plane to say 'I am…

    • Taken Inventory by: ScottK

      May 11, 2011, 20:17

      So, I made the commitment for moving to San Francisco as of June 1st and because in the beginning of May  there was a moment where I had to shit or get off…

    • Projects Ho! by: ScottK

      April 28, 2011, 09:22

      I have some really powerful community projects I am working on. They all pretty much tie into Burning Man in some way because it is a community of souls I have…

    • These Times by: ScottK

      March 26, 2011, 23:39

      ...they are a changing. So... I think in recent months (years) my direction on this blog has been to bitch about something. More like vent about something…

    • loss of blood flow to brain by: ScottK

      February 25, 2011, 21:42

      This isn't porn!!!! It's guys somewhere in the world wrestling... and it is beautiful! bustour#4 - gladyatörs from markus dassel on Vimeo.

    • Where? What? Huh? by: ScottK

      February 4, 2011, 13:38

      Been feeling like making an entry, but my thoughts were focusing on negative things and I think I need to vary away from all that. I get so angry when I think…

    • Paths by: ScottK

      January 24, 2011, 13:24

      Things have been going well, relatively speaking, and the blessing haqve continued to come. If only I could find some stable ground to stand on along the…

    • Sunday Sunday by: ScottK

      January 9, 2011, 23:53

      Today was entirely a waste of a day. What do you do when you don;t get out of bed until 2 hours later than normal? What do you do when either allergy pills…

    • Zzzzt! by: ScottK

      January 7, 2011, 12:28

      Trepidations on moving forward and advancing for life right now. I have a lot of hope on the future and somehow the enablers of the world have me feeling good…

    • Reflections by: ScottK

      January 5, 2011, 23:52

      Well, the day is winding down and I feel lik the face life of UrielsJournal is basically done. I am sure I will add more over time. I am also very interested…

    • The Universe by: ScottK

      October 4, 2010, 21:19

      STOP SCREAMING AT ME!!!!!!!! Okay, now to something a little less schizophrenic. To start off with, a little background, I am a believer in Augurism (spell…

    • Little Victories by: ScottK

      October 1, 2010, 10:03

      Since coming home from Burning Man this year I have made some promises to myself as previously noted. Chiefly, in my diet and my activity. I have been carrying…

    • Back from Burning Man by: ScottK

      September 10, 2010, 09:01

      The trip to Burning Man is already detailed in the Burning Man section of my personal site. In the final days of the trip I had time to do a lot of…

    • Something nice by: ScottK

      August 12, 2010, 19:35

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    • 10 Things... by: ScottK

      August 2, 2010, 07:13

      10 Things I love about Vegas Pools on hot days The comfort and lack of agendas from fellow burners Sunset Moon rise The hills surrounding the city…

    • 10 Things... by: ScottK

      August 2, 2010, 07:07

      10 things I hate about Vegas That people are routinely unreliable, flaky, and ambivalent That people really exist in their own micro-verse in spite of…

    • Good Morning Me by: ScottK

      July 18, 2010, 23:32

      Life takes some odd turns. While trying to figure out my ups from my downs I found something in the universe today that made me feel kinda good. Is it faith…

  • Category: Things that haunt me  (64)
    • Coming out of the gray clouds by: ScottK

      October 21, 2015, 22:26

      I am trying something new. I am trying to be more present in the moment. I am trying to let go of a wrecked past with a father that I grew up with dastardly…

    • 24 Hours later by: ScottK

      October 13, 2015, 21:30

      Venting should be therapeutic. Catharsis should be lifting? Idk, but after yesterday's post I hoped to take some of the weight off my shoulders and find…

    • In a dark place.... by: ScottK

      October 12, 2015, 21:33

      When I started writing this blog as many years ago... it was a time when I was much happier. I am like a swimmer in the ocean caught in the rip tides these…

    • 6 months later by: ScottK

      July 15, 2015, 22:32

      I am still alive... not that there is any great mystery to anyone paying any kind of attention. No one reads this blog any more and with the rise of Facebook,…

    • Misery Myself by: ScottK

      January 14, 2015, 23:04

      Lately things have been feeling so tightly wound that I feel like I am nothing but a bag of delicate twigs inside. Push a little on the outside wrapper and…

    • Portland: Alone or Together? by: ScottK

      October 24, 2014, 08:47

      I made another entry on here earlier today and also reached out to a few people in Portland and had this strange sense of purpose again. It was as if I was…

    • What is a Friend? by: ScottK

      October 11, 2014, 16:25

      One of the things I struggled with a lot here in San Francisco is that it has been really hard telling who I am friends with and who I am not. There are people…

    • Dreams Last Night by: ScottK

      October 11, 2014, 10:20

      More weird dreams last night. At least when I have dreams they turn out to be a long story. It is often very complicated and with a lot of detail. The key is…

    • More Crazy Dreams by: ScottK

      September 27, 2014, 13:47

      I have been having some weird dreams again lately. Nothing too freaky, but Salvador Dali might appreciate the visual anyway. Dream #1 The night of my last…

    • 2014 September Check-in by: ScottK

      September 16, 2014, 09:13

      Good morning world. I looked at my analytics and it seems like people are still coming to my site, but seem to be looking at the pages with naked pics on them…

    • speaking of notes... by: ScottK

      June 27, 2014, 18:43

      I am part of a production for a something called Secure Camp where we are trying to build a community, grass-roots program for the reduction of sexual assault.…

    • Still wondering what's next... by: ScottK

      May 29, 2014, 15:18

      So I sit here thinking about my future wondering where it will take me. Am I the driver or the passenger? It hardly seems logical that a 50 year old guy can…

    • Full Moon Tonight: New Start? by: ScottK

      May 14, 2014, 10:03

      I made no secret about the self improvement things I have been working on since the beginning of the year. Books, practices and more. I am not faced with…

    • More than 10% possible by: ScottK

      April 10, 2014, 01:08

      I never thought reading self-improvement books would be something I would do. But, if you read a lot of my past posts you can see where I have been dealing…

    • The road less traveled is I by: ScottK

      January 25, 2014, 11:57

      I am a miserable human being on this planet these days mired down in what I think is everyone's expectations of me. Not exactly making a great proclamation…

    • ... Bus babble.... by: ScottK

      November 5, 2013, 14:16

      Seems odd that C Monster and I had another weekend so full of chaotic behavior that the end result seemingly brought us a little closer. He fell of the wagon…

    • ...tinkering along... by: ScottK

      October 23, 2013, 00:11

      Late into the night and getting ready for bed. How is it I am 48 years old, going on 49, and still trying to figure myself out. What sucks is, I can;t blame…

    • Another Goodbye Note by: ScottK

      October 15, 2013, 09:03

      Is writing in here more lately helpful at all? I should make a vBlog soon, I have not done that in a while either. I am not dealing with Tom's death and I will…

    • ...my baby boy passed on today... by: ScottK

      October 14, 2013, 15:54

      Tom the Dawg died today. He went to heaven... no other place for this puppy.

    • thinking more... weighty shit by: ScottK

      October 14, 2013, 10:58

      The weight of the world is on me as I write this. Dramatic as it sounds, I cannot stop thinking about everything. My last entry was an attempt to douse a…

    • no shortage of thought by: ScottK

      October 12, 2013, 09:41

      Lately, I have had a lot of reasons to spend time thinking about the practical nature of my life rather than the spiritual and fluffy-fluffy shit. Reading my…

    • my mind by: ScottK

      September 16, 2013, 12:06

      I don't talk about certain things very often. Seems when I do it goes against the grain of the flow of the universe. Count this one up as one of my stranger…

    • Goals and plans 2013 to 2014 by: ScottK

      September 12, 2013, 11:15

      Having trouble focusing on what I need for me. I came back from Burning Man with some new goals and have not written any of them down. Everything is a…

    • Post Burning Man thoughts by: ScottK

      September 9, 2013, 13:59

      It's been a week since coming back from Burning Man and the head trip continues. All the baggage I started off with has shifted on meaning. I stayed sober,…

    • Against the wall again by: ScottK

      July 29, 2013, 18:50

      One of the older faeries here in the city sent me a text message asking I we could meet and talk. He mentioned my current hard times and was offering to be a…

    • Amazing is what amazing does by: ScottK

      July 15, 2013, 11:46

      I saw this today in a stupid commercial... but it's what is missing when a lot of people look at me and the things I do. "A lot of people" seem to exclude a…

    • Blah blah blah by: ScottK

      May 18, 2013, 06:53

      Seriously, some of the shit that gets stuck in my head would boggle a lot of minds. Its been so messy up there and I am working on ways to get some focus back.…

    • Losty McDumbfuck by: ScottK

      May 14, 2013, 08:12

      Last night I took another evening for myself. These evenings seem to involve a lot of numbing myself out and getting into questionable circumstances. I bought…

    • I am a horrible human by: ScottK

      May 9, 2013, 22:10

      So, I have been made aware what a shitty human I seem to be. It's been been pointed out by other people inside and outside of my head. Outside my head I have…

    • Too long... by: ScottK

      May 8, 2013, 21:35

      As usual it is a year and a day since I made my last entry so much has happened and I forget about this thing. This blog. I used to be so good at keeping it…

    • Happy New Year by: ScottK

      January 1, 2013, 12:33

      C Monster and I decided to play through the new year separately because I wanted to 'party' while he was choosing to remain sober after a drunken disaster my…

    • it's broken by: ScottK

      July 13, 2012, 18:38

      I have seen people walking around in this life and thought - he's broken. You can see some people are stuck. Some people are still in the 70's, 80's or trapped…

    • Singel Again? by: ScottK

      June 17, 2012, 07:27

      Last night had another big fight with C. Not sure what it was about or where it was coming from. BUT, I felt a million miles away from his last night. I…

    • Previous post by: ScottK

      June 10, 2012, 12:29

      I went on a rant in one of three posts I made today. Earlier a post about my father was supposed to be about the bike ride. The correlation is this. My father…

    • baggage from father by: ScottK

      June 10, 2012, 11:48

      I often feel like my tires are spinning fast and I am getting no where. I have a place in this world somehow and at 47 years old I have not really found out…

    • Snap Shot by: ScottK

      June 6, 2012, 21:16

      I have not posted a video blog in a long while. The only reason is that I end up spending an ungodly amount of time rendering it then uploading it... (heavy…

    • a little prayer by: ScottK

      May 19, 2012, 23:23

      The new job is going really well and I hope that it keeps going that way. I will do everything I can to keep it going that way. So, this is my new start and…

    • a dream last night by: ScottK

      April 11, 2012, 07:32

      Soundtrack for this posting: play as you read So, I woke up today feeling a little puzzled over something ... I had a dream last night that I was…

    • get'n some Verbal by: ScottK

      April 9, 2012, 22:38

      I feel like the highs in the last years have been equal to the lows. This universe is  a double edged knife I feel like I am dancing around it. As I sit here…

    • Aftermath by: ScottK

      November 3, 2011, 18:40

      I have been at my moms since Tuesday and since becoming officially homeless in San Francisco. Nothing is carved in stone and life has to be a little fluid…

    • Stressed Out / Fried Out by: ScottK

      October 28, 2011, 19:17

      Days are ticking down to the point where I have to move out of my current situation and need to find a new one. The main reason for the shift was to get away…

    • Memories Love Lost by: ScottK

      October 22, 2011, 21:36

      Today I had some thoughts left over from yesterday. Well, after a restless night last night I woke up feeling kinda crappy. Once in a while I have dreams…

    • VLOG: Thoughts by: ScottK

      September 19, 2011, 11:18

      There is a point just after 7 mins where it gets a little long... the transition before the out take should be FF...

    • back from where... by: ScottK

      September 15, 2011, 20:53

      I have not written anything here since coming back from Burning Man probably because I really have not completely landed. When I try putting the puzzle pieces…

    • 1964 by: ScottK

      July 12, 2011, 11:48

      I have shared a lot on this thing. This is my personal journal. I have also sorta faded from posting as often as I have because it feels like writing here…

    • Friends by: ScottK

      May 16, 2011, 21:29

      After my last posting I got calls from my mom and sis-Christine trying to find out if I was ready to drive off a bridge somewhere. I love their concern, but no…

    • In My Head by: ScottK

      May 12, 2011, 23:18

      I am feeling very reflective lately and without any doubt it is all about the coming changes coming into my life. I made the leap from the plane to say 'I am…

    • These Times by: ScottK

      March 26, 2011, 23:39

      ...they are a changing. So... I think in recent months (years) my direction on this blog has been to bitch about something. More like vent about something…

    • Burned and Broken by: ScottK

      March 2, 2011, 22:55

      What is it about the last couple of years where I seemingly burned a lot of bridges as if I was making some strange purge of people from my life? It started…

    • That Guy by: ScottK

      February 26, 2011, 10:59

      There are a lot of things going on in my life right now. I am in a tough place when it comes to surviving day to day while trying to make something out of the…

    • My 2011 Burning Man by: ScottK

      February 22, 2011, 20:05

      I updated my 2011 page for Burning Man today because as I roll forward I want some sense of my plans posted even if no one is paying attention. Grr... Pity…

    • Paths by: ScottK

      January 24, 2011, 13:24

      Things have been going well, relatively speaking, and the blessing haqve continued to come. If only I could find some stable ground to stand on along the…

    • 2011 Has Begun by: ScottK

      January 13, 2011, 12:00

      I have been very reflective the last couple of weeks with the beginning of the year. I am questioning my place in the community I have come to love so…

    • Sunday Sunday by: ScottK

      January 9, 2011, 23:53

      Today was entirely a waste of a day. What do you do when you don;t get out of bed until 2 hours later than normal? What do you do when either allergy pills…

    • Reflections by: ScottK

      January 5, 2011, 23:52

      Well, the day is winding down and I feel lik the face life of UrielsJournal is basically done. I am sure I will add more over time. I am also very interested…

    • The New Year by: ScottK

      January 5, 2011, 11:58

      At the end of 2010 I made a promise to myself that I would not put any negative statements on Facebook. I see a few people posting out their personal dramas on…

    • Today to Tomorrow by: ScottK

      November 4, 2010, 12:56

      I have been blessed on many levels and I need to count those blessings more often. I know my prayers are being heard, but even though there is a long delay in…

    • Tell me why? by: ScottK

      November 4, 2010, 12:48

      I have not been posting here very often, I think I am now apologizing amost weekly, but am sick by where I am in life and the direction it is all going…

    • Reflection by: ScottK

      October 4, 2010, 22:10

      You know, there is a lot of people in this world whom I have grown to love and appreciate. BUT, many of them are outside of a shell for me. I choose freinds…

    • Meh by: ScottK

      September 28, 2010, 19:51

      I just read through some of this shit... I hated it all.

    • Now what? by: ScottK

      September 28, 2010, 19:38

      Can't say I can see the future... but after my last three entries I had hopes for something to go more positive. Now I deleted those three entries thinking I…

    • Identity Crisis by: ScottK

      September 23, 2010, 10:31

      Since coming back from Burning Man I have made a lot of promises to myself, most of which I have managed to keep. These promises are all for my personal…

    • kvetching by: ScottK

      September 15, 2009, 22:00

      so on Facebook I did a bit of a rant today because of someone else's entry. It was a super whine from someone I carried a lot of respect for. Ugh, without…

    • Traveling: IN Whittier, CA by: ScottK

      February 15, 2006, 08:11

      We are curently traveling and are in Whittier, California. We left Las Vegas on Monday and went to my dad's place. My dad (www..com) has changed so much…

  • Category: WTF  (17)
    • Drifting by: ScottK

      April 26, 2014, 00:49

      Why should I start with a title before writing something here? I do and then I want to change it when done. I started today's title with: Drifting. There…

    •  by: ScottK

      January 26, 2014, 00:57

      So, not a lot pf feedback on my post earlier today. But, the idea that this might be considered a pit party irks the unholy shit out of my head. I got a couple…

    • What if...? by: ScottK

      January 25, 2014, 14:47

      What if that last post was my last post ever? What legacy would that have left behind me? Weird enough that I thought about that.

    • The road less traveled is I by: ScottK

      January 25, 2014, 11:57

      I am a miserable human being on this planet these days mired down in what I think is everyone's expectations of me. Not exactly making a great proclamation…

    • Against the wall again by: ScottK

      July 29, 2013, 18:50

      One of the older faeries here in the city sent me a text message asking I we could meet and talk. He mentioned my current hard times and was offering to be a…

    • Someone save me some space by that dumpster... by: ScottK

      July 26, 2013, 13:44

      Seem unimaginable that I have been out of work almost a whole month now and have no prospects. Although I have had amazing interviews it has amounted to…

    • New Path Ahead by: ScottK

      July 3, 2013, 08:57

      Good Morning Monday... today I am unemployed and have no income coming in at all. I spent much of the weekend (when sober) contemplating how today was to…

    • Too long... by: ScottK

      May 8, 2013, 21:35

      As usual it is a year and a day since I made my last entry so much has happened and I forget about this thing. This blog. I used to be so good at keeping it…

    • it's broken by: ScottK

      July 13, 2012, 18:38

      I have seen people walking around in this life and thought - he's broken. You can see some people are stuck. Some people are still in the 70's, 80's or trapped…

    • Monday Monday by: ScottK

      April 16, 2012, 18:45

      It's hard to put things into perspective sometimes when you think the end of the world is upon you. 'There for the grace of God go I' is something I have often…

    • a dream last night by: ScottK

      April 11, 2012, 07:32

      Soundtrack for this posting: play as you read So, I woke up today feeling a little puzzled over something ... I had a dream last night that I was…

    • 12 Hours of Shame by: ScottK

      April 7, 2012, 08:56

      There is a guy in Vegas that I know whom I will call Papaburner who once told me, via Facebook, that drama follows me. While I had to get over the initial…

    • What just happen???? by: ScottK

      October 22, 2011, 22:29

      This is actually part 2 of a story... or shall I say the non-readers digest version. I posted a very clean version of this tale on www.gayburners.com choosing…

    • All around me are... by: ScottK

      July 12, 2011, 10:29

      In my life there are certain energies that I think I have exuded. No matter where I move in the world and no matter what changes I make in life there are…

    • God's Test #3042 by: ScottK

      May 27, 2011, 07:03

      GOD'S TEST OF MY PATIENCE #3042: So, I am walking into the parking garage of my contract gig this morning and it is on a side street off E. Sahara and she…

    • birthday @ FireFly Las Vegas by: ScottK

      December 30, 2006, 12:12

      Last night was my birthday gathering at Firefly. Adolfo made all the arrangements and talked to some or all of my freinds and it was a nice occasion. Woody…

    • stupid schtuff by: ScottK

      April 25, 2006, 15:13

      my outlet for expression has been on mySpace.com/ for the most part in recent weeks. it may even be considered an obsession. but, i ever since i started on…

  • Category: Video Blog  (2)
    • vBlog: Back in San Francisco by: ScottK

      November 8, 2011, 10:59

      Well, I am back in San Francisco and am treading water. I feel different being here again. I feel like I belong here right now... not sure how long that will…

    • VLOG: Thoughts by: ScottK

      September 19, 2011, 11:18

      There is a point just after 7 mins where it gets a little long... the transition before the out take should be FF...

  • Category: Display  (5)
    • eBay Now by: ScottK

      April 22, 2012, 21:39

      I decided to post a recent sewing project on eBay to see if I could manage to sell it. It was a piece I had in mind for a while and added fur sleeves and other…

    • What just happen???? by: ScottK

      October 22, 2011, 22:29

      This is actually part 2 of a story... or shall I say the non-readers digest version. I posted a very clean version of this tale on www.gayburners.com choosing…

    • Memories Love Lost by: ScottK

      October 22, 2011, 21:36

      Today I had some thoughts left over from yesterday. Well, after a restless night last night I woke up feeling kinda crappy. Once in a while I have dreams…

    • VLOG: Sunset in San Francisco by: ScottK

      September 27, 2011, 21:06

      Was just a beautiful night and I got all video happy again!

    • VLOG: Friends by: ScottK

      September 21, 2011, 10:13

      Playing with video stuff... what do you think?

  • Category: Good Times  (15)
    • Lot's going on by: ScottK

      February 1, 2015, 20:54

      Well, I started a new job last week and it was neither as a designer or as a cook; in any way. It's a job and one that pays better than anything I had over the…

    • Happy Veterans Day: My Lemonade Tale by: ScottK

      November 11, 2014, 12:01

      I often see very positive energy coming my way and while I see it, energy does not always become matter. I wish there was more of a manifestation of something…

    • An Exhausting Weekend by: ScottK

      October 7, 2014, 07:20

      It was one of those weekends. It was one of those weekends when you are called to be the +1 with your partner and all his college friends who were getting…

    • Visiting Mom and Bob by: ScottK

      September 24, 2014, 18:18

      I'm in Tehachapi, Ca visiting my mom and step-dad and helping them reassemble their house after she had all new flooring installed. The floors look great, but…

    • 2014 Spiritual Gathering for Radical Faeries by: ScottK

      July 9, 2014, 10:55

      Yep- that's what I did this last week. It was a very needed experience and I was so glad I was able to swing it. The postings on Facebook had me so excited and…

    • Still wondering what's next... by: ScottK

      May 29, 2014, 15:18

      So I sit here thinking about my future wondering where it will take me. Am I the driver or the passenger? It hardly seems logical that a 50 year old guy can…

    • More than 10% possible by: ScottK

      April 10, 2014, 01:08

      I never thought reading self-improvement books would be something I would do. But, if you read a lot of my past posts you can see where I have been dealing…

    • Goals and plans 2013 to 2014 by: ScottK

      September 12, 2013, 11:15

      Having trouble focusing on what I need for me. I came back from Burning Man with some new goals and have not written any of them down. Everything is a…

    • Us, We, Them: Trip Report Part1 by: ScottK

      July 11, 2013, 11:18

      I disappeared off the earth again for a few days while doing some self discovery. I went to a place I dreamed about going to for as many as 6 years; it was…

    • Yeah I know... been a while by: ScottK

      February 27, 2013, 22:11

      I have not written here in a while for reasons I cannot say. I know I was turned off when I discovered someone was reading these things and writing me and…

    • Saturnalia by: ScottK

      December 16, 2012, 23:40

      So tonight I went to Saturnalia: Unbound Celebration! and as per usual the Faeboy Clan and the Comfort & Joy people created something so huge and so full…

    • Beach Day with "C Monster" by: ScottK

      November 25, 2012, 22:18

      First of all, "C Monster" is my new secret name for my bf C. He seems to have an aversion to being put on anything I publish on the web. He is smarter than I…

    • Here's the deal... me going to Burning Man by: ScottK

      July 19, 2012, 19:07

      So, I had pretty much given up the idea of getting to Burning Man this year but Freddy called me and got me all stoked. Why did it take so long? The problem…

    • 2012 WNBR by: ScottK

      June 10, 2012, 12:17

      I am 47 years old and have the soul of a juvenile. Most people use the word asshole, but I choose the other. If nothing, I am an idealist, optimist, deluded…

    • Our Christmas by: ScottK

      December 26, 2006, 10:18

      X-Mas finally got here in the -Valencia Household and we celebrated last night. Pics and gift list below... we had a blast. I have a photo I could not include…

  • Category: Burning Man  (6)
    • 6 months later by: ScottK

      July 15, 2015, 22:32

      I am still alive... not that there is any great mystery to anyone paying any kind of attention. No one reads this blog any more and with the rise of Facebook,…

    • Lot's going on by: ScottK

      February 1, 2015, 20:54

      Well, I started a new job last week and it was neither as a designer or as a cook; in any way. It's a job and one that pays better than anything I had over the…

    • my mind by: ScottK

      September 16, 2013, 12:06

      I don't talk about certain things very often. Seems when I do it goes against the grain of the flow of the universe. Count this one up as one of my stranger…

    • Post Burning Man thoughts by: ScottK

      September 9, 2013, 13:59

      It's been a week since coming back from Burning Man and the head trip continues. All the baggage I started off with has shifted on meaning. I stayed sober,…

    • Back from Burning Man by: ScottK

      September 8, 2012, 10:53

      I arrived back in San Francisco in the weeeee hours of Tuesday morning (about 3:00 am) and had to be off to work by 6:00 am. The drive home took 2x longer than…

    • Here's the deal... me going to Burning Man by: ScottK

      July 19, 2012, 19:07

      So, I had pretty much given up the idea of getting to Burning Man this year but Freddy called me and got me all stoked. Why did it take so long? The problem…

  • Category: Trip Report  (3)
    • Visiting Mom and Bob by: ScottK

      September 24, 2014, 18:18

      I'm in Tehachapi, Ca visiting my mom and step-dad and helping them reassemble their house after she had all new flooring installed. The floors look great, but…

    • 2014 Spiritual Gathering for Radical Faeries by: ScottK

      July 9, 2014, 10:55

      Yep- that's what I did this last week. It was a very needed experience and I was so glad I was able to swing it. The postings on Facebook had me so excited and…

    • Us, We, Them: Trip Report Part1 by: ScottK

      July 11, 2013, 11:18

      I disappeared off the earth again for a few days while doing some self discovery. I went to a place I dreamed about going to for as many as 6 years; it was…

  • Category: Radical Faery  (5)
    • Portland no more... East Bay? by: ScottK

      November 6, 2014, 11:07

      The last week has been an upheaval in a way. A lot has happened and I am stuck in my own thoughts once again. That is like putting your feet in cement and is…

    • Back to Faery Land by: ScottK

      September 19, 2014, 10:08

      Heading back out to GroundSwell today... the new Radical Faerie idealized land in North Central California. The land is awesome though the spirit energy there…

    • 2014 Spiritual Gathering for Radical Faeries by: ScottK

      July 9, 2014, 10:55

      Yep- that's what I did this last week. It was a very needed experience and I was so glad I was able to swing it. The postings on Facebook had me so excited and…

    • SGRF : Trip Report : Part 2 by: ScottK

      July 14, 2013, 10:35

      Less than a week ago I came home from the Wolf Creek Sanctuary (WCS) where the Spiritual Gathering for Radical Faeries (SGRF) was being held. I have known of…

    • Us, We, Them: Trip Report Part1 by: ScottK

      July 11, 2013, 11:18

      I disappeared off the earth again for a few days while doing some self discovery. I went to a place I dreamed about going to for as many as 6 years; it was…

  • Category: Spiritual Stuff  (5)
    • 2014 Spiritual Gathering for Radical Faeries by: ScottK

      July 9, 2014, 10:55

      Yep- that's what I did this last week. It was a very needed experience and I was so glad I was able to swing it. The postings on Facebook had me so excited and…

    • no shortage of thought by: ScottK

      October 12, 2013, 09:41

      Lately, I have had a lot of reasons to spend time thinking about the practical nature of my life rather than the spiritual and fluffy-fluffy shit. Reading my…

    • Just a few little thoughts added by: ScottK

      September 25, 2013, 11:56

      After my previous post, maybe right now a Quija Board is not in my immediate future. After reading through, even for me, I cannot justify trying that right…

    • Ouija Board use by: ScottK

      September 25, 2013, 11:28

      Been curious about this for a while. I know when people misuse these things they end up with some stupid reactions from the spirit world. Don't believe me?…

    • my mind by: ScottK

      September 16, 2013, 12:06

      I don't talk about certain things very often. Seems when I do it goes against the grain of the flow of the universe. Count this one up as one of my stranger…

  • Category: 2014 Goals  (9)
    • Portland no more... East Bay? by: ScottK

      November 6, 2014, 11:07

      The last week has been an upheaval in a way. A lot has happened and I am stuck in my own thoughts once again. That is like putting your feet in cement and is…

    • Me Myself and I - wait, did this one  by: ScottK

      October 24, 2014, 10:22

      So, the last few days has been a course of reflection and you might have noted in my last 2 posts I talked a lot about potentially moving to Portland very…

    • Portland in November by: ScottK

      October 22, 2014, 17:23

      Time to stop kidding myself and stop coasting on nothing. I have been hiding out at CMonster's place for a while and want to move on. The plan right now is…

    • Dogs: Past and Present by: ScottK

      September 25, 2014, 08:47

      I love dogs. Well, good pets... cats have not been horrible. But dogs are the best. After my Tom-Dog passed on a year ago Mom & Bob got Maggie and she is a…

    • Expanding my Creative Menu by: ScottK

      September 18, 2014, 18:17

      I started another writing project based on a pretty cool idea. It's funny how things sorta flow in the universe and I have to wonder about where some of my…

    • 2014 September Check-in by: ScottK

      September 16, 2014, 09:13

      Good morning world. I looked at my analytics and it seems like people are still coming to my site, but seem to be looking at the pages with naked pics on them…

    • Full Moon Tonight: New Start? by: ScottK

      May 14, 2014, 10:03

      I made no secret about the self improvement things I have been working on since the beginning of the year. Books, practices and more. I am not faced with…

    • Working it by: ScottK

      February 13, 2014, 00:42

      Just thinking ahead for my plans this year. Although I find it hard to forge time for this blog/diary but it's a matter of forging what is needed. Deadline…

    • Bill Collectors by: ScottK

      February 10, 2014, 13:52

      My mom called to say a bill collector looking for me called my biological sister looking for me??? I have not talked or communicated with her in decades. Ins…

  • Category: Work in Cooking  (3)
    • Getting motivated for moving on by: ScottK

      April 30, 2014, 22:36

      So, Alexanders is in the rear view mirror and I am not heading anywhere yet. I am very bummed out that this did not give me any space to spread my wings. I…

    • my last note to Alexanders by: ScottK

      April 30, 2014, 08:49

      I want to thank Erin and Sean for your incredible empathy during this crazy time. When I came by the restaurant yesterday I was able to remember how much I…

    • my resignation @ Alexanders Steakhouse by: ScottK

      April 26, 2014, 12:06

      Below is an email I began writing to Gail this morning with the anticipation we could make a new path toward moving into the future that I did not send, but…